Cold Heart.
A cold breeze flows through my ears and I look towards the sky
The clouds are rolling like smoke in a jar
They run so fast across the sky that it's like time is speeding up
Orange hues of red sunlight flicker through the gaps
I can feel the pricking of grass
I can feel it in my ears
My toes
It feels like every hair on my body is a blade of golden straw
My chest is cold and I feel my body is frozen to the ground
My heart sinks into the soil. I wonder, what’s left of me?
Small fairies of warmth crawl into my body
They're like little puffs of fire that dance around my face
I can feel them crawling into my mouth
Down my throat
It doesn’t feel bad.
It's like drinking warm tea on a cold winter's day.
I can feel my body getting warmer with each leap down my throat
But my heart feels like a stone
My body gets lighter with each jump down my throat,
But my heart feels heavier and heavier.
The pull of the grass gets stronger and stronger,
Rip.
Rip.
Rip.
R. I. P.
It feels like my skin is burning
The blades of grass that stuck into my skin
Are being pulled out as my body floats higher
And higher
Every
Single
Piece
Feels like needles piercing into me
Pluck
Pluck
PLUCK
No, stop.
Stop entering my mouth little fairies,
This pain is too much for me to handle.
My heavy heart is ripping through my spine
Every nodule popping out of place
It hurts.
I can feel the flesh of my back tearing and ripping apart
It burns.
It feels like I’m bleeding
But there's no blood.
I feel light-headed.
A lump grows in my throat
But the fairies keep going in
I’m starting to choke
I can feel tears trickling down my face and into my ears.
Why is this happening?
I try to move my arms to cover my mouth
But I can’t feel them.
help
help
I can feel myself screaming
But I can’t hear anything
A ringing in my ears goes on for what feels like an eternity
My bones are aching and cracking and I can hear it in my head
crack
crackle
pop
My body begins to stop feeling and I know in my cold heart,
That I am already dead.