The fear I have I can't even operate normally. I walk and I watch to see if I am being contaminated. The germs don't stop I just want to run. I am trapped by this fear and don't know how to stop. Oh, I wish I could stop it really hurts me. I try and I break into outbursts like I am controlled by someone else. Even my family wants me to find help, The pain I go through seeing them worried about me hits me hard and it hurts. I've even tried rehab, It did not work. My life cannot stay like this, I am miserable and cant work. My pockets are running dry since this disease hit me. We will be forced onto the streets if all I do is cry. What will it take, I will get myself out of this. My family will no longer be in pain for the problems I have.