Losing You

I long to see you, but you make me numb,

Your absence in my life makes me feel alone,

I miss you dearly, and my heart aches,

Blaming myself for the mistakes I've made,

Emotions pierce like needles, and I'm filled with rage,

Depression sets in, and I can't escape this cage,

I light up my last cigarette, hoping it's a dream,

But you dissipate like smoke, or so it seems,

Tears begin to fall, and I see you in my mind,

You look into my eyes, and I feel alive,

You promise never to leave, and my heart beats fast,

But I know you're gone, and the pain will last,

I long to touch you, feel your lips on mine,

Hold your smooth skin, and never let go this time,

I dream of you every day and hear your voice,

But it's not enough; I need you to make a choice,

If I could undo my wrongs, I would,

Admit my mistakes and do everything I could,

We'd dance to our song from prom in high school,

And listen to you sing along, feeling so cool,

But I can't shake off this weight on my chest,

I wish you were here alive, and I were blessed,

But losing you was devastating, and I can't believe,

That you're gone, and I'm left here to grieve,

I wonder if I was delusional, if my feelings were real,

But I know you were thinking of me; that's how I feel,

You slowly fade away, and I'm left with regret,

But I know you're watching over me; I can't forget,

My love for you isn't gone; it's still here,

Someday we'll meet again; I have no fear,

You'll always be my babe, and I'll always sob,

Thinking about what I've done, and what's lost.