My Love Ran

I hated who I was until I met you

I couldn’t bear the burden

Of accepting my own love

I would constantly pick and probe

My own heart and soul

Searching for a route to comfort with myself

And when you first told me you loved me

My own love sprouted from deep beneath

And slowly grew, surely and freely.

And now that you’re gone

And now that I know all love easily dies

The love I had for myself has vanished,

It ran away with your love for me.

It’s selfish and it’s sad

The measures taken, the truth concealed

In order to fabricate self-security

I blossomed when I had you

And you used to tend to my thorns

And they made you bleed

And eventually you stopped

I let you step on me, hurt me

Just so I could keep that feeling

A double bliss, that made my heart

Swell like the ocean

I reach or tell myself I’m reaching

For the only love I ever needed

One that was once in my grasp

My love was fixed, only in love with

What it got in return, with how beautiful it felt

So without you here, my love has nothing to offer, it’s got nothing to say.

And that’s why my love won’t come back.

I pray it’s on vacation, but I know where it is.

My love ran with the heart of another’s.