Failures

Out of mind, out of sight.

Why can't anything ever go right?

I give all I have every day.

Yet it all falls apart in the same way.

You finally see a hint of change in the near future.

Until it doesn't work out, and it's the same pain you have to endure.

I finally found a job to support my family. 

Only it turns out to be a scam, just like they said it would be.

Living week to week wondering how I'm going to pay the bills.

Knowing my little boy could lose his home inside it kills.

Knowing everything is a priority but trying to find out which is more important.

Being told to stay positive, but some days knowing I can't.

It's hard knowing you can't give up because you have someone else depending on you.

It's hard wanting to break down and scream but you have a boy watching what you do.

How do you tell your baby you can't give him what he wants for his second birth day?

How do you hold him in your arms and make him feel better when you're not even sure if you're okay?

Feeling like a constant failure to everyone.

Wanting so badly to never become a failure to your own son.

Into my mind, into my sight.

Silently wishing an opportunity would come to light.