he loves me,

he loves me not,

i love him?

i love him not?

i sit confused and angry and frustrated. 

i try and figure out my feelings without ever being taught how to. 

i'm enraptured one second, 

and indifferent the next.

STOP STOP STOP

my thoughts are screaming at me.

he loves me?

he loves me not?

And me? we don't know.