i am quite worried

in the back of my head

a black little ball

maybe not a ball, but a mass

it grows

like a tumor

it's a thought

and it's a feeling

but it's also kind of empty

it has no substance and it has no meaning

but it is endless

i wish it could be eradicated

like some disease

but instead it grows 

in my head 

finally it is so big it ends up in my belly

it's funny, this thing

it's like a big bunch of emptiness

but you can't feel "empty"

empty isn't an emotion

but this thing is empty

and i can't stop feeling it

i don't know what it is

or why it's there

but it won't leave, and it never does

it touches me from my head to my toes

this big, black mass

i think i'm empty

but, still, somehow i'm full

it's funny

the way i'm full of nothing