Anxiety

I can't breathe as they take you away

I can't breathe as you look back at me

I can't breathe as night turns to day

I can't breathe knowing you won't be free

I choke on tears running down my throat

I choke on bile coming up my chest

I choke as my heart sinks like a boat

I choke on this useless brand new dress

I twist the napkin in my lap

I twist the truth when people ask

I twist and fall into the gap

I twist my arm to stay on task

I chew my pencil into dust

I chew through maps to find you

I chew on food that tastes like rust

I chew on a love I thought I knew

I cover my ears to block out my sobs

I cover my eyes so I can't read the clock

I cover my mouth so I don't lose jobs

I cover my key turning in the lock

I pull on my hair waiting for the phone

I pull on my panties no one will see

I pull on myself just to hear a groan

I pull on a branch hanging from a tree

I fall behind again at work

I fall through a promise to my son

I fall in love again with a jerk

I fall down as I try to run

I worry more than I know I should

I worry they will never let you out

I worry like I never thought I could

I worry that this is not what life's about.

Darrian Lynx