God

Today I feel unsure.

Of my place in the world,

the one person I thought I truly loved,

everything.

I'm starting nursing school soon,

but I just need a sign

that after three years trying to choose a career,

I have chosen something that will bring you glory.

And I need a sign to stay,

to keep fighting for this love,

even though I am only fighting myself.

Today I pray for peace,

tomorrow, answers,

even if you decide that the decision must come from me.

I just need guidance,

because I can't go back to who I was,

when I was always unhappy,

and self-sabotaging.

I want to keep moving forward,

if only to further your kingdom.