2:04am

I'm sitting in my bed

this terrible, comfy warm trap of a bed.

My mind is saying I should sleep.

I've been trying to for the past 5 hours.

I look over at my pillowcase

(my phone flashlight is on

because I just went to the bathroom

to wipe off my tear soaked face)

and feel ashamed that I have cried so much.

I can't even sleep on that side of the pillow.

I flip the pillow over.

Let's try this again.