My Struggles

I write about my life 

my pain and struggles 

I have been through so much 

I have so many feelings and secrets 

I keep inside my head 

I let them loose 

in the words of my poems 

All of my poems are really 

they are part of my past 

they are part of my present 

they tell my story 

the story I have a hard time 

speaking about

even in therapy 

were I should share everything 

But it it so much easier  

speaking in the written word 

posting it on here 

lets people read it 

people can know how I feel 

I can't show the people I know 

strangers will read 

but not try to help me 

not try to fix me 

or cheer me up 

like my friends would 

like my family 

I can feel heard 

without feeling judged 

strangers may judge me 

but what does it matter 

I don't know them 

that inspires me 

I can speak my mind 

I can tell my story 

I can feel heard 

that is my muse