MyFirstHeartbreak

it kills me to know you're okay when i am numb inside and out

when everything was collapsing for you i would be there to build it back up

but now my world is crumbling and you aren't here to build me back up

you are the air that i breathe but to you i am nothing

you used me as a way to escape the life you thought you had

when you were happy and didn't need someone to listen you left

but what if i need someone?

the most evil thing i can imagine is coming into someone's life and making them get attached and then leave a few months later

i have nothing but thoughts of you coursing through my veins.

after all, you are the blood keeping me alive.

i spent months pushing thoughts of you to the back of my head

but you are a fire

and fires spread.

you made it back by burning every single wall that i managed to build.

and then you left again because you don't need me

but for me, you are the only thing i need to heal every single wound you have caused me

You are the only thing keeping me Alive.

You are the only thing killing me.