Numbers

I suppose I have always been jealous of numbers.

It took me a while to figure out why

but then I realized

that numbers have value

they are respected for their orderliness;

they all have their place in a respected in functional system;

It isn't true that all numbers are inherently useful,

but we give them a place nonetheless;

I envy numbers

how in their timeless being

they always seem to have the universe under control

when I can't even seem to quantify my own thoughts

about the world around me;

But in the world around me

the beauty of numbers has been bent

and manipulated

beyond the stolid order of unhindered mathematics;

We as a society have stolen numbers from the universe

twisted them into preset notions

changed their value

to quantify our own worth;

age

weight

followers

income;

We all try to find solidarity in the fact that

We all bleed the same

But numbers don't bleed

As human beings

we are all victims of the same corrupted system

If we all bleed the same

why should one person's numbers hold more value than the rest?

Why is it that if we all bleed the same

One man may afford the medical care to heal his wounds

while his neighbor down the street

suffers and dies?

Somehow it seems that numbers,

which were supposed to give us value,

has instead stripped all of it away

Because we fail to realize that unlike numbers,

humans aren't meant to be part of a system

We all bleed the same

Yet some of us bleed more than others

and that's okay

but as humans, and not numbers

we do not stand alone

we do not have a predetermined value

we do not need to stand in the periphery while other humans suffer

We may all bleed the same

but what if

at least for a moment

instead of being victim of our own numbers

we combined our worth together

and the bleeding stopped?