i feel the distance growing between us.

at first i refused to believe it was there. i trusted you that you would stay, would always be there. we still laugh still joke. we are best friends and we always will be.

but the abyss between us grew.

what had i done? why were you slowly moving away from me? was i that annoying? clingy? needy? was i too sad? too passionate? what had i done to drive you away? it is all my fault that you're abandoning me. what had i done?

you started to hang out with others to avoid me.

jealously consumed me. how dare they take you from me! frustrations would build only to fall crumbling to pieces. you are your own person, if we spend enough time apart maybe you will come back. maybe if i act kinder, less clingy, sad, less horrible. maybe then you'll come back

you stop talking to me unless you have to.

there's no one now. you were the only person i had for five years. the one i laughed with and leaned on. i didn't need anyone then, i don't need anyone now. i drive a wedge between me and everyone. i don't mean to. but maybe you where right to leave i can still build back what we had if i could just fix everything.

you're gone.

i cant get you back. you no longer wanted me. you left and i have to accept that i will never share a laugh with you, never pick you up again. i lost you and i don't know why. i have so many questions that will never be answered. I'll pass you by and smile remembering, but the joy I feel remembering will not be echoed back at me.

we where best friends, we both loved each other. at least that's how it seemed. but i got too attached. i didn't see you change. we where best friends yet you left me. you don't call. don't text. and you don't answer me either.i am on my own now.