At My Door

I meet your eyes

And I don't say a word.

I try to smile,

So you don't see that I'm hurt.

I mean I guess I sort of knew

That I meant nothing to you,

But I refused to believe

You'd just let me leave.

I refused to expect it was all a game.

I couldn't accept that there would be no change.

I got so tired of being alone,

So I showed up at your door.

Am I not welcome anymore?

I shift my eyes

Hoping I'll see your face,

But when I do

It's like you've gone and erased.

I mean I guess I should have known,

We just didn't want to sleep alone -

But I wish that my window didn't look out so far.

I could stare out for hours wondering where you are.

I wanted someone to really want me.

So if I showed up at your door,

Would you not want me anymore?

I wish I had the nerve

To just show up at your place.

I wish that you'd just say something

When your eyes meet my face.

And I hear someone knocking -

I know it can't be you -

But that doesn't stop me

From wanting it to.

And you've still said nothing.

And I'm still here waiting.

And you had me believing

That we could be amazing.

And I thought I'd be okay

With things this way,

But I didn't think that we'd never be friends.

Just tell me that it's over,

Tell me there is no more,

So I can stop hoping

It's you at my door.