When thoughts manifest

I am so tired with my dad’s constant carping about life and the struggles it is throwing at us. I know we are going through a hard time but my dad just does not seem to understand that he makes it harder for us to think and act through his constant grousing. Times such as these require peace more than anything else. Peace is what can bring in the solutions to the seemingly daunting problems. “Seemingly” because most of them are just the illusions of my dad’s mind. If those problems transpire then we might face some major troubles. But there’s an ‘if’. However, I believe that one must not waste time over things that have either happened in the past or may happen in the future. It is the present that matters most. Because it is in the present that we are alive.

My father refuses to accept that philosophy that whatever we think manifests in our lives. If our thoughts are primarily negative, what happens in our life will also consist of primarily negative events. He thinks these are just words except that he is observing the same manifest over and over because of his negative thinking. My dad is not a villain in my life but he surely is becoming a burden by creating such a massive negative spiral around us. No amount of positive thinking seems to appease him.

The result of his behavior is that both, my brother and I, are moving into a shell. A protective shell that we don’t want to come out of as we don’t want to face his continuous negativity. In fact, we do not feel like talking to him or even being in the same room as him. The problem is becoming colossal as the two of us don’t even feel like working or doing anything constructive and sometimes anything at all when he is around. His negativity begins early morning from the first words he speaks as he gets up and lasts to the last words he speaks before sleeping. As per him, he is unable to sleep at night as he has these thoughts troubling him when he is lying down to sleep as well. Which means he is immersed in the negativity 24x7.

I have shown him videos which show the power of positivity. Have read out and made him read several articles that harp on the power of positivity. Have tried to make him meditate in the morning which he is unable to because his thoughts won’t leave him or he won’t leave them. Nothing positive manifests. And it doesn’t because he won’t let. He believes that money is the solution to all problems we are facing. I believe peace will manifest all solutions if it’s let to. Therein lays our tussle with each other. Everyday.