Questions for God

Does he know I'm here 

Can he taste my fear,  my hesitation 

When I pray does he hear

If I cry would he wipe my tear

It is said the hairs on my head are numbered, are too the black freckles that I've dotted my soul with? 

I have these questions for God 

Like why I don't hear when he speaks

Or why my memory seems to have leaks

I was angry. What type of God let's their people suffer

What type of God gives a child to a child to raise

I have these questions for God, but no answers,  and no firm way to get them. Dear God send me a text message,  I would probably understand better. Dear God send me the rules in an email. You are losing me and my generation. Faith is spread too thin,  and little of us hold it in. I sometimes think I am an unbeliever, I sometimes think I am a black wooled lamb. Either way,  I doubt any God would be pleased with the way I am.