"Sophia, stop it!" I cried, bursting into her room to find her balled up and sobbing, pills thrown around her feet. She looked up at me with her big, brown eyes and the recognition sent chills through my body.

This was Sophia... The girl who always made me feel okay with myself even when I felt like shit growing up, who could make me smile when all I wanted to do was cry, who helped me through my depression. How could I have been so selfish to not have seen her suppressing her own?

"Soph?" I couldn't contain my own tears. My childhood buddy, my best friend... I knelt down and gripped her shoulders.

Her head fell into my neck just like all the times before, but I had never seen her so upset. My brain just couldn't register my strong Sophia had been trying to... off herself?

"Shh, I'm here Soph," I tried my hardest to coax her, even though my heart was breaking. She begged for death. I saw it when she looked up at me, for the usual laughter in her eyes had been replaced by longing for the pain to be over.

"Shh..." I ran my fingers through her hair.

"P-P-Penelope?" Sophia sobbed for me. I said her name. "I don't want to be here anymore!" She grabbed my shoulders and hugged me tighter, I hugged her back.

"I know, Soph... But I'm too selfish to let you go,"