Almost Lost

To know me is to know my life,

To know my strife.

I've almost taken my last breath,

But I prayed just to survive.

Fathers voice and mothers eyes

Brought me back from the brink of death.

Knife was at my wrist

About to slice just like a chef.

Gun was to my temple

Trigger under finger bend

Never been suicidal

So don't know how the thought lingered in.

Losing the mental warfare

Against the man trapped in fire.

He only comes to kill,

Steal and be a liar.

Snuck into my ear,

And told me I was worthless.

I knew the thought was foreign

No way my mind had birthed it.

I kicked him out my brain

And told him don't come back

You have a place in hell

So just go there and run that.

He said that he'd return

Said I'd be ready this time.

At least I believed it

Until he had me grip this nine.

I scream My life has meaning,

But this fight is so intense.

Almost had me give up life

Until I threw it down in strength.