Anger
Anger
no...Rage
Fills my being
Burns inside me
Devours all sense
I want to SLAM my fist
SLAM them hard
Until I can no longer feel
The pain of anger
Or is it the anger of pain?
Unexplainable
Tearing me apart inside
making me want to
SCREAM
To SMASH
and DESTROY
a fire of rage
Burning away all logic
Turning everything in me
all thoughts and emotion
To ash
Leaving only a monster in a shell
Filled with anger
And
emptiness
Tainted rose
It appeared like any other day; nothing seemed to have changed. Nothing out of place. However, this day I saw what hope, innocence and naivety had hid before. Dull colours replace brighter hues. Bullets made of tears rained down on a ground painted green and grey; this time I didn't hope for the sun...
For the first time (but not the last), the warm smile of our precious star peeking out from behind miserable charcoal clouds didn't wake me up. Instead, I was dragged from serene sleep by the cruel sound of an attack at my window; of heavy footsteps closing in. I opened tired eyes to the painful glare of stormy skies and fire in my eyes. As if the world had sensed a change of path that I had not...
I heard my sisters voice as if it were in my head rather than outside my bedroom door. For once it was shut where normally my voice would join hers. A dread had settled in my heart where the loving, passionate scarlet had turned into an angry crimson like my innocence was slowly bleeding out...
Later on, sitting quietly on a sofa that had become more uncomfortable than it had ever been, I cringed as her insults reached my ear. Normally, it was just to easy to let the words shoot right by me but that day the bullets seemed to graze my skin and finally leave a scar...
"Fat," "ugly," "die," are just single, harmless letters connected together by darkness grown of jealousy yet together that wet, unlit day they seemed to have more power than the dimming hope fire that once formed my soul. An opaque ice created a thick shell around my soul that masked the hopeful flames. Once annoyed thoughts of my nuisance of a sibling seemed to grow and freeze into an icy hate. 'I want her to feel the pain that I do,' 'I wish I didn't have a sister.' Dark, loveless toughts that before I had blockaded from my light-filled mind now turned the key to a pitch black, iron gate...
An unfamiliar, strange emotion tainted my heart and mind; it promised to stay forever. Tendrils of fear, pain and hate snaked thenselves around my skin, creating a new being as the ghost of who I was left the body she no longer recognised, tainted as it was...
Every part of my body became polluted by a newly born, menacing killer born of darkness; a threat to my light. The most beautiful part of me was pushed out by Hate for innocence cannot exist with unpure, unkind thoughts. My innocence was murdered by the scar of Hate's bullet and the cold, blunt face of reality outside my door. Time showed me what once I was blind to and my innocence became forever lost...
This is the story that changed my life: Once upon a time, there was a girl. She was happy; hopeful; kind; naive; innocent. But life scarred her and made her lose herself so she became just another tainted rose, bleeding and screaming for her lost hope.
Carrie Fisher
Oh, 2016 may well tighten its grip
But right throught it's fingers, now Carrie will slip
America's shedding a tear in its strife
As our Princess Leia fights hard for her life
The Death Star's horizon arriving to say
"I've come here to take Carrie Fisher away."
And we won't allow it; she gave us the play
The layout, schematics, and so she will stay
Oh, 2016, we just blew up your core
Disperse into history; bye; there's the door
The star systems gather; the Force is with her
No, don't give up, Carrie- on that we concur
Selfish-Soul
The soul is selfish
The soul is needing not giving
Only few knows the secret
Pain is not just suffer
Pain is experience
Growing into your lungs
In secret...in darkness
.....
The soul is selfish
The soul is never complete
The soul is always demands
...
The soul is selfish
Pain has no names
Pain has no roofs
If limitless has limit
Then pain does
Everyone's pain is the pain
Flesh and blood we are...Flesh and blood
And wandering soul that is cruel
The soul is selfishness
The soul is Tyrone
People are weak
People don't see what they don't see
(Muse During The Class, But I Don't Know What Does That Suppose to Mean)
#whatever #soul'snot4ever #lifegettingthougher #weliveinsuffer
Walking Body
Walking body I have become...walking body...
The tears in my chest locked
My soul sold me to depths of hell
I see nothing...
But path to an endless end
How much is too much now?
Guess I'll not be there to know
Too much is what you'll never know
Everyone has their hunting ghost
We're all broken in a way or another
Everyone has more than the other
Everyone's pain tougher than the others'
My path is to run into cirlce maze
Everyone's running into their path
They think they know the others' path
It's simply complicated path into maze
Walking body I have become...walking body...
Dead soul in my eyes no more I can hide
Lost thoughts into darkness and emptiness
Humans are layers onto hidden layers
One yellow one blue and one just a smile
What is life? What's is the purpose of life?
Life is unsolved mystery
Buried into darkness and grave
Different color and face
Different layer style and phrase
It's all part of the path...path into maze
There's no much for too much
You may see too much but will never get to know how much is too much
(Muse During The Class)
#bullshit #craphit #fallengrit #lone4it #trustshit #human<-s->hit
Defaced
I failed to see beauty, utmost
Turned into an image, beaten down
Fleeing from my growing back
A monstrous hump was formed
I turned into a statistic, a run down Motel where
You lift the bed and bring your own sheets
I turned into a statistic,
Cloaked in deranged pity
And my soul awoke one day, found my
Body bleeding under a pillow case
My soul wasted no time on me
My soul didn’t pair well with my
Memories
Memories that turned me into
The most heinous, biggest ball of
Guilt there ever was
Defaced by an untamed scratch
Defaced by a tongue needing to cool
And all around me were strings
Getting pulled
Clburdett, 2015