One Night Long Ago

There is a carnival that comes to my town every year

You don’t live near me, but found out about it somehow

Maybe my mom said something

She always wanted us to be together

But it doesn’t really matter how you found out

All that matters is that you did

I remember you asking me to go with you

You didn’t tell me you had broken up with your girlfriend

You had been dating for about three years

It must have been a big deal

I don’t know why you didn’t say anything

That’s probably why I was so surprised

I remember not knowing what to say

What was there to say?

You already knew my answer

I didn’t have to communicate how I felt to you

That was the good thing about knowing you my whole life

You knew everything embarrassing about my past,

But that helped you to really know me

We could have an entire conversation just by looking at each other

I remember when the day finally came

I stressed endlessly over what to wear

It was the first time I had ever worried about that

I wanted everything to go well so badly

I just wanted you

And suddenly, you wanted me too

I remember walking there and home because my parents were too busy

I didn’t even mind the walk

It gave me a chance to get my nervous energy out

I’m so glad we went

I can still picture the look on your face

When a Fall Out Boy song came on

You sang so loud in your horribly out of tune voice

I don’t remember the last time I laughed so hard

My favorite part was the ferris wheel

I hate ferris wheels

I think they are dangerous and I want nothing to do with them

But you convinced me to go on

We started talking about all that had happened in our lives

Since the last time we met up

And when we reached the top,

We both went silent

We just took in the view

I forgot to be scared

You made me feel safe

And when we started moving again,

Slowly making our way to the ground

Just so that we could go back up again

I looked at you,

My trance broken

You were staring at me

I’ve never seen you smile so wide

That was one of the happiest moments of my life

You had the chance to see the the world

It was laid out right in front of you

But you chose to see me

You knew how to make me feel special

How to make me fall even deeper in love with you

I didn’t want that night to end

When your mom came to pick you up,

She offered me a ride

I denied it

I have known her my whole life

She is like my second mother

I didn’t need her asking questions about the thing she had always wanted to happen

We shared one last smile

I watched as you drove away

And practically skipped home

We never talked about that night again

But I know neither of us has forgotten

I knew it wouldn’t work out

But for one night,

You convinced me it was worth trying

And now it’s gone again

And I’m back to admiring from afar