I look out into the beautiful skyline

Purely dreaming…

How can somebody like me make it out of the gutter?

It’s like chains putting a strain on my pursuit to happiness

The chains that bound me to my unforgettable past

The past that once drowned me in my darkest sorrows

It haunts me daily…

Not just at night

Who would’ve know this life would be this hard?

I didn’t choose this life, it chose me

So tell me, what do i do with the cards that was dealt to me?

Meaningless conversations and friendships only confirms my self-doubt that i’ll never find the answer…

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I wonder if my eyes tell the story of my past?

Are my eyes filled with pain and tragedy? 

Are my eyes happy or is it a travesty?

Because I can't seem to distinguish between the two.  

People always tell me I have beautiful eyes, cat-like eyes.

But I don't see anything beautiful about them.  

I can't seem to see anything beautiful in the world because all I see is darkness surrounding me.  

Please God help me see the beauty in life.

Please help relieve me of the hatred covering my heart because I want to live happily.  

I put a shield over my heart that's blocking me from ever having a pure heart.

I want a new heart, a new mind, one that's clear from pain. 

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I'm my own worse enemy. 

I'm a prisoner of my own thoughts. 

I want to be free but my mind won't allow it. 

Heart crying and my insides dying. 

My eyes are blinded by the many tears that I shed but noone looking, listening, caring, so I want to give up. 

The easy way out but that would be pathetic.  

No way in hell am I pathetic.  

I look to the sky for guidance, for hope, reliance and all the help is out there waiting for me to grab it but my body is slow to react, I feel like I'm in a slow motion nightmare.  

I want to give the world my all and shine through the darkness that's surrounding me but my mental block is slowly cutting off sense of reality, drowning in my own sorrow.  

Sorrow is my best friend, my only friend.  

God help me because sorrow hates me. 

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