If only
If only, if only
I wish we could be
I want to be yours
But thats just too obscene
If only, if only
You would see what we could be
But i don’t blame you for my misery
If only, if only
i could learn to love myself
Then maybe I would be free from the things inside this shell
Free of my failures
Free of my fears
To scared to approach you in fear you won’t want the real me
If only, if only
The next time i see you
I let go of these silly things
Swallow my fear and take a chance on you and me
If only if only

I Wish it were me
I wish it were me
I wish it were me
Framed within those portrait lines
The one who gets to make you smile
The one who gets to call you mine
I wish it were me
Instead of being the sideline guy
Always seems like i just get left behind.
At least left on read, i just might be dead
Because that’s all i feel instead
I guess it won’t be said that I’m not good enough, or at least that’s Just what keeps me up.
In the middle of the night,with the thought of you inside my mind.
I can fill my heart decompress when I lay my head to rest.
But you still cross my mind
So I cross my heart and hope to die
That i might wake up and not want to cry
I wish it were me
Just this once , choose me instead
But those are just selfish thoughts that run through my head
I wish it were me
Caught somewhere in that fantasy life
To see your name pop up on my screen every night
Oh how i wish it could be you and me,
Caught between this mystic dream, you could see my heart and all of me
The Things I’ve Lost
The Things I've lost along the way
Those things I've lost I can not say
When did I lose them?
Where did they go ?
The Things I've lost along the way
The Things I've lost along the way
Was it my heart?
Was it my soul?
Will I find them again someday?
Today? Tomorrow? it's hard to say.
I pray to god those things don't stay the same.
I'm so tired of losing things along the way.
A Dream or Distant Memory?
I can't descrive how you make me feel.
Lucky, loved and all in between.
Oh, how your smile makes my day.
Very happy I am to be with you always.
Even when life can get a but crazy.
You'll be right there patiently waiting.
Oh how I can't wait to see you again.
Under the trees where we first held hands.
Remebering the moments I'll cherish so dear.
Oh I can't wait to make even more next year.
So here's to the girl who has a hold on my heart.
And may she never forget how this lucky guy feels.
But this simply was just a dream and now is a distant memory.
Her
His heart was full of love, but his eyes grew deep with sadness.
Some even said it was madness.
Stricken with despair and sorrow, she had left this world never to be seen tomorrow.
With her, she had taken his heart and soul.
Like a great storm darkness fell upon him, taken root in the cracks and crevasses of his being
What he did not know was that she held onto these things to remember the warmth of his heart and freedom of his soul.
For she was holding onto them until they cross paths once again, where she will give back what she rightfully stole.
But for him, he does not know this. All he can think is about the warmth of her smile when she walked into the room or the way her tender heart made him swoon.
Time is endless and to her time is just a blink away.
Seasons will change and time will pass for him oh so slowly but as the season's change so will he. Eventually, he will be old and grey waiting for his final days, but until then she will be watching over with an everlasting gaze.
I was Blind
Oh how blind I was to your soul.
What I thought was deep in you was merely the reflection of what I wanted to see.
Oh how i was wrong to what lay beneath.
As I dived into your unknown waters, I realized how blind I was to your true deep waters.
How wrong of me it was to disturb your calm still waters.
What had I done!?
To disturb me such beautiful still waters.
I become lost and confused as I drowned in my own guilt and dismay
But what was this? I felt something touch my leg.
It was you! Despite me foolishly sending ripples on your surface and disturbing what truly lay beneath.
Even then you forgave me and drowned me with love.
Because of your love
.... now I see.
Now I see!
Now I see you’re the one for me!
Cosmic Gaze
Bright like the closest star.
Her stair pierces your head like a dagger and grabs you tighter that that of death itself.
Her eyes are as deep as the sea and more mysterious than all of space’s infinity.
When she smiles they look a thousand times more beautiful than any sunset.
Like an astronomer that can’t turn away from a star lit sky.
I can’t help but stare into her cosmic eyes.
Lost in her never ending gaze.
I can’t help but wonder what possibilities await me in this star lit haze.
I Am A Ship
This sea is so very dark and sad. I don’t remember when this journey began, all I know is it has been a very long time since I left that place. The place where all ships first begin their voyage. While we my come from different lands, all know a place that unlike these dreaded seas, is not foreign to us. A place we gladly set our anchors with relief, a place like home. Oh how I miss that place, a place that is now to far away.
The harsh winds and waves have made me forget what I have truly been looking for. All I can say is that I’m looking for a place where I may lower my anchor once again. A place my damaged haul can rest easy against soft golden sand. How silly that seems with every passing day. Is it a dream or a nightmare? I have yet to see.
You see there was at one point hope in this voyage. I have found land along my way, but these where false shores. Blinded by their golden sand I failed to see what lay beneath. As I approached into their shallow waters jagged rocks and riptides pushed me away. These left my haul cracked and splintered. At one point I thought I would sink, but I was patched up and slowly over time I was fixed. Well.... maybe not fixed this scares are still there. Every now and the patches come lose and have to be sealed again. However, a ship can only take so much.
If I do not find land soon eventually my haul will be broken by these harsh waters.
I set sail everyday looking for that land to rest upon, but if I do not find it soon I will be devoured by the deep dark sea.