wHaTS wr0nG w1th mE
i know i did something bad
yet i push it away pretending it never happened
but deep down
it's still there
coming over me like a title wave
i feel sick that it never leaves
i want to forget what hurts inside
but it always haunts me
holding on so so tight i can't breathe
and
it never lets go
remind me
I stood drenched in the rain on the cold city streets. No cars or no light, except for one red restaurant light flickering on and off. The city was as dead as how I felt now. The only sound was the rain and his breathing. I faced my boyfriend. I soaked in the way he looked, the curve of his jaw, the way he laughed, the way his hands once held mine. I shivered as I focused on his voice. It was full of sorrow, "...We can't do this anymore Gorgeous." I smiled sadly, he always called me that name when he was serious.
He stood only three feet away but I could tell he wanted to hug me and save me from all of this, maybe even save himself too. He continued, "I think we both had seen this coming. This is really the only way and I would do anything to stop it but I can't. I don't know what will come next but what I do know is that I love you so much, I really do."
I could feel myself breaking. He was right. I knew that this moment would have happened no matter what, I just never imagined it would hurt this bad. I looked deep into his eyes. The eyes I said 'I love you' to, the eyes I planned my future with, the eyes I would have died with. I couldn't take it any more. I ran into his arms. Mascara ran down my face and splashed onto his arms that always had held me so tight when I was sad. I looked up at his chiseled face, God I loved him. I finally spoke after what seemed like ages, "I will always love, but you are right it's time to say good bye."
Something buzzed in his hand. His phone screen lit up. I could see the pain in his face as he looked down at it. It was time. I uncurled myself from him as he looked longingly at me. We both started to back away from each other. As we parted I could feel our hearts being ripped apart. As he started to walk away I put on my brave face and smiled, "Don't get into any trouble, you hear? You be good." He turned back with a half smile smirk and his eyes light up with mischief and yelled over the pouring rain, "I will Lovely. I'll be good. Be good too!" I laughed. He could alway make me laugh. I sighed because I was in trouble. I already missed him.
My hand buzzed. I glanced at it as my phone screen lit up. He had texted, "If you love me, please remind me to forget you... because you are pretty unforgettable."
was it meant to be?
She cried as warm water enclosed around her
She had black and brown purple spots in every place on her body
She ached but was used to it
The pain was so unbearable she grew numb
Warm steam soaked onto her skin making her feel for a couple moments of nothing
She let the water run over her bruised puffy face and her black eye
Her gashed lip stung as she remembered how he had hit her
Maybe if she loved him right he wouldn’t have harmed her like the so many times he did
She felt her heart explode into a million pieces
She really loved him but does he really love her?
her
she was more then perfect
a light in the endless darkness
i became the happiest person alive
when she smiled at me
i would spend every second
every ounce of energy
just to see her laugh
i met the perfect girl
a type only you can dream about
i never found the key to her heart
but i was content with the life i had
because she was in it
i wanted to take away her pain
she deserved so much more
i would never find another girl like her
she was an angel in disguise
she was prettier then i could ever imagine
- a very sad boy
life sucks
Life’s a beach
It rolls and crashes
Moving on
With or without you
Not caring
Just cold
Chilling to the bone
It seems calm and smooth
Like the waves on the surface
But underneath the water it’s chaotic
It will pull you under
If it gets the chance
Never caring
Just taking you away
As you sink slowly
Into darkness
