Venomous
Those toxic fumes
surrounding your presence
my breath of life,
pressed against me
with his fierce touch,
so smoldering
and yet strangely gentle,
burning my skin slowly
right to its deep, soft core...
I stand in your arms
bleeding inside,
with every sharp word
that comes out of your mouth,
a mouth so sweet
when given a taste,
and yet so deadly under the lips
This wasn't good for me
This was addictive
and pained me deeply,
This thing, that you so bravely
and without doubt
tenderly called love
That love,
it wasn't giving
but the kind of a feeling
that just still kept on living
so toxic from within
left me unsatisfied
and shattered
because of your dark, venomous spite
Infinity:
I can tell you what it isn't.
It isn't that time I was at the top of the ferris wheel
having a poetic moment when I got another impulse
to jump off and I had to fight it
It isn't words someone said to me once
that had so much meaning that i’ve completely forgotten them
It isn’t the dark blue words
that flooded the congregation
and my faith in God returned to me
It isn’t my stubborn belief in heaven and it isn’t my denial
And it isn’t my pain because pain has an end and dont you get it
everything ends goddammit but
Infinity was a line i drew in the sand
Waiting for you to cross it.
When you didn’t, i was on the ferris wheel again
But this time i didn’t fight the impulse
