It’s not easy, ain’t it? But you knew that already. You’ve heard it like a broken record in a silent bar in a ghost town which never existed. You knew it already.

When you heard about the meteor shower the other day. You wished to see it from the bottom of your heart. But you don’t have a heart, do you? That’s what your father says. And you convince yourself there was no meteor shower too.

Things which we see, we know that they exist. You see your friends happy, you see them laugh. But what about you? The realest you you’ve seen is after all only a reflection. Are you happy? Your photographs say you are.

I heard you got into a fight last night. It wasn’t easy, he says, beating up someone bigger than him. But you knew that already. You know everything already. Nothing is ever easy and you pretend that he doesn’t bleed. He’s invincible after all.

And under the stars that don't exist, you convince yourself that you're happy.

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I knew not the sound of laughter

Knew not from the pain

Wondered when the sun would shine

But prayed that it would rain

I saw the clouds move that day

Marching along the lines

Breathing in the flowers

Forgotten across the times

But they said there were no flowers

It was only in my mind

No patch of green in my garden

Nothing there to find

Some said that I was dreaming

Some only called me dumb

Said that being stuck all day

Made my thinking numb

I told them it was green before

And I say that it’s still green

There’s still a garden out there

I’m not living in a dream

Close your eyes gently they say

And pray for the rains

To come water your garden

While you slip away from the pain