I Don’t Know
I am a background character in my own life, just waiting for a moment of my own
Tell me what you need, and I will get it done
Are you upset? Hurt? In need?
Tell me
I will buy you lunch, I will drive you wherever, I will watch as you shine, the star of your own life, and fly away from here
You will not take me with you, even though you say you will
I will be left behind, as I was always meant to be
Tell me what you need
Take every favor I have ever done, everything I have ever tried to become and throw it away for me
Tell me what you need
Can I help you stop hurting? Can I help you?
Because that is my purpose, that is all I know
I only know how to fade away, unknown, alone
And finally, just
Disappear
And when I am no longer needed by you, then I cease to exist
Because isn’t that what I’m here for?
I Never Thought
I never thought I would be able to kill another moving, breathing thing, I had never been particularly violent; it wasn’t in my nature. The first time I even pushed someone over I cried and cried until the kid I pushed over looked at me, alarmed, and told me to “shut up”, but a lot has changed in two years. Two years, that’s all it had taken for the initial outbreak to spread past the borders, and now, I don’t know if there are places that haven’t been infected yet; news stopped coming after the first sixteen months, any communication had been cut.