Love’s Remains

I felt my soul leave my body, and it was running towards your light. It knows even though you are gone, it can feel the trembling effects of your residual love. My heart can't help but wander off the earth and search for every love's remains there is to find of you. This has been a mission ever since this flesh of mine and bones were first engulfed by your cosmic dust. Nowadays, love feels strange, the sound is otherworldly, and it looks like my fingers snuck off and spilled poetic ink all over the sky and made a mess out of the moon's love. I haven't spoken to her, in what feels like forever. It has been a while since I swam through her ocean, and looked her in the eyes, to tell her to thank you for your love shining through my darkest hours. It isn't because I forgot about her, but truth be told, we haven't been on the best of terms, since she took your love away from me.

My heart is caught in between the devil's spider and its web, full of games and deadly things he likes to force me to play. My soul is constantly shifting into a death that isn't mine to claim. After all of what I have been through, it has taken me lifetimes to catch my breath and to find a reason to keep breathing for love. You came into my life like a wrecking ball of a storm, raging through my front door, without an invitation. I can't hide from you anymore. I can't run from these feelings, and can no longer run from this love I still feel for you. Even after all this time, I am all in with you, despite the fact you are still hiding behind the moon's shadow.

I know the life of a vagabond that bleeds through me, recognizes when another needs the space to roam freely. I can't sit still and hide from all that I feel for you. I would rather have you drag my heart through the sun, instead of me pondering over the idea of us making it through this life if we had tried harder. I thought I wanted to swim through your transparency until I started to choke on the bitterness then drowned in the sounds of forever that were once flooding through the floorboards of my soul. I swear that all I wanted was to be with you and your light, and now all I want is to set you free. I wish I could make you see how love gave you a spirit that I never wanted to tame, but only to run freely alongside it.

My soul has been bleeding profusely, all over the sky, and running, manically through all the pain that knows my name. My life is fading right before my eyes, but I remain steady, in hopes of catching your light before the last breath of love escapes me. This heart has been all over the place, trying to bleed over words that have always been meant for you. I know I fucking hesitate way too often with you, and maybe that is a sign to let go. I want so badly to believe my love reaches you, but the life of a dreamer gets you six feet deep into trouble that you can't escape. I know I lost you long before you ran off. I will spend forever, wondering what it feels like to embrace your love, while having the sun daydream about you. I will spend forever wondering if love's remain is a garden that I can walk through and bring your love back to me. Until then, take care of the moon for me.