4 A.M Thoughts Come To Life
Nothing will remain
and that is what is truly terrifying.
We will die, and not even ghosts of our life will linger.
Homes will be swallowed whole
as children are crushed beneath the weight of molten earth
mothers drown to save their young
while fathers fight fires that have already won
tongues of Titans that seem to twirl at your despair
the same tongues I have begged to make love to me in my sleep
I have always wondered what it would feel like
to drown and burn alive at the same time
yet never in my life I would imagine such
four a.m tragedies would escape the backsides of my eyes
singing
feed me, feed me,
and another home sinks to smoke
feed me, feed me,
and another family is encased in stone
feed me, feed me
another death, no memory to atone
feed me, feed me,
in the end, we all died alone.
Elf on a Shelf
I see everything, hear everything,
breathe and bask in, everything.
I lie here in wait for the day
you walk through the door and notice
beneath lodestar, lintel and locust wings
above chimney, churn, church bell
Basking in the love of every Yuletide turn of wheel
pluck me from my perch and with purest of promises
raise me to Heaven and tell the angels,
Happy holidays, and have an enchanted New Year.
Puberty
I fear change like caterpillars as their bodies encase themselves in cocoons;
Nerves burning
body changing without consent of brain
world darkening
as I close and close and close and then,
I am nothing.
Will I live for a day upon bursting out with such radiant wings
or will I be crushed under adolescent heel,
my remains puddles of puss and pieces of shell?
Time will tell its tall tales
and then silence itself till we forget it ever existed
yet I will remember this fear,
this horror of feeling yourself from within
like snakes shedding their skin
ripping yourself to pieces to see the sun tomorrow
but tomorrow, the sun has died
and the moon just sits there and asks
“Who are you?”
I do not know, I do not know, I do not know
Seasonal Depression
I do not know when the summer will come, but it will.
The snow will melt and we will forget
my children will rise from the soil
roses among buds
and they will bend their backs and stretch
rejoicing in break of sun
warmth against flesh not a cloud in the sky
a day that never has to end
a night that will never come to pass.
But it will again.
It always comes back.
Lot Lover
The city burns
and I hear her scream,
hear all the people fall and fade and burn,
lose form and flicker beneath the earth.
I hear them, and I hear God,
holy trumpeteers and flutter of angels wings.
Only a glance, I tell myself, pushing her ahead.
To gaze as a father destroys his children
sweetest perdition to ever be wrought in the name of glory,
and in that second my eyes popped, a flash, and then I fell apart,
for as he burned the city, I swear,
He was crying.
Epilogue
Everything on this earth
has birthed itself into existence
with a thought
but I, splinter child
seven years between brother
must have thought too hard about
whether or not there is life on Mars
or if God watches you go to the bathroom
or if when I grow up I will find somebody to love me
as much as I do /
as much as I love you/
as much as I try to/
as much as I wish I did.
Where will we go when we die?
Will we wait till we birth ourselves again
as we dream about the sunrise?
And what about the things we leave behind?
What is left after The End?
Credits roll,
I pray they don’t crush you
Lord allow me an Epilogue
to show that I love you.