Me
I, myself
I don't know
If you're able to tell
But I,
I'm just barely a
Teenager
13 less than 5 months ago
I'm in what you'd call
The "Gifted" Program
Just to tell me
I'm smart,
Which seems like a load of
Crap to me
We're all smart
Next year, I'll be
Taking advanced courses at the
high school
9th grade work for a 7th/8th grader
Fun times
But...
Math,
Science,
History,
Art,
They're all okay
But writing,
Writing is what I love
I think my
Innocence helps
But sometimes I feel
Like I'm 13,
Going on 73.
I know they say the world
Isn't black and white
There are grays
But I see the world in color
I have my opinions
I try to voice them
While seeing the other side
I get along with most
Hardly anyone who dislikes me
That I know of
And if you hate me,
Well, that's okay.
I don't hate you,
I just know,
That sometimes everyone can't love me.
But my writing,
I like to think I write with
A new view
An open view
With innocence
But wisdom
As well
And that's just how I think of
Myself.
Flowers
Twirling and
Whirling
Blossoming all around
Pastels
And
Vibrant colors
Red, oranges, fiery tones
Icy blues and violets
Thorny stems
Some all too trusting
Leaves of all shapes
And sizes
Flowers attracting
Others
Changing the world
For worse or better
Some are alluring
Some happy
Some snappy
Some dying
But, they are all flowers
And all flowers
Should be
Equal
Chambers
My heart was broken,
Shattered into pieces
A heart now turned cold
Instead of the warmth
It once held
Once broken
Now livid
I let my anger go
I am one with the fire
Deep inside the icy black coal
I open my chambers
I let the emotions flow
My chambers hold what is inside
My deepest feelings will arise
Into the cold, cruel world
The Box
The door was open, and they looked out. The night was stormy, and rain was pouring down. On both porches of a street abandoned by cars, two heads peeked out. The light from the hallway illuminated the blonde hair cascading down her shoulders. His dark brown hair was outlined as his head poked out the door. They saw each other.
She was surprised. Why was he up? He usually went to sleep no later than 11:00. She would know, after all. She had loved him for many years, but he never spoke of it.
He was worried. He knew she loved him. But, he didn't want to let love in. Not again. It would only leave him devastated.
They went out to find more. More about each other. He tried to turn it into a friendly outing with a neighbor, but she truly believed it was a date. She grew to enjoy his company more and more with each day, and he, grudgingly, did, as well.
He finally asked her out on a real date, and she accepted, of course. They found that they were perfectly compatible. She knew him like the back of her hand, and he thought being around her was like wearing a pair of your favorite jeans.
She crept into his room one night, after she had stayed the night. She wanted to know why he was so reluctant to open his heart, to share his worries. Why it took all her warmth to melt his frosty exterior. Why, even as she tried to get close to him, and it seemed as though she was, he always pulled away with a guilty look in his eyes, from his soul. She wanted answers. She wanted his heart. Fully.
The door creaked slightly, and she cringed. She waited a few seconds before quietly making her way into his room so she could scour it for clues. She looked in every nook and cranny. She found dirty socks, dusty books, and extra blankets, but no clues. She searched the bathroom joined to his room, but, again, found nothing of interest. She snuck back into his room for one final once over. She noticed that she forgot to look in his nightstand. She pulled the drawer open, and found a box. She carefully lifted the lid of the box. She gasped. Two rings were inside. One had his initials on it, and the other, a diamond and some initials she was unfamiliar with. All the pieces came together in her mind. She placed the box back, and turned to make her way out the door, but instead, she saw him, leaning against the doorframe.
This Week
This week has been... as normal as it can be. It consisted of final soccer games, absent friends, teachers eating skittles, lagging in math class, an idiot pulling the fire alarm, guys poking me, and quite a bit of face paint and mint gum. School is stressful, let me tell you. Overall, there isn't much I'd change. At the moment, things can be pressuring and hectic, but looking back on it, it wasn't that bad. It's almost Friday, though, thank goodness.
Thinking
Thinking. It's funny thing, isn't it? I think, then I type it here. Or maybe I type it here, then think. Editing? Only afterwards, not during. Well, when I begin thinking, it's like a train. One thing leads to the next, and eventually my thoughts end up somewhere, and I wonder how they got there. Like riding the bus in the mornings. I sit for 20 minutes and listen to music, and suddenly, I'm at my destination. It feels as though the ride goes too quickly. Like life, I suppose. If you think about it, you have 100 years, or, most likely, less, to make a difference in this world. And then you're gone. It's a peculiar thing to think about. Death. When you won't be able to do anything anymore. No eating, writing, reading. Or maybe there is. That's why death scares humanity. We don't know and we probably won't be able to figure out what death is like. And that scares us. The unknown. Like the only depths of the ocean, where we can't see, and don't know what is below. Inky depths. Like the night sky right now. Well, it has become later than I expected. And somehow this post went from thinking about thinking to how dark it is outside. This is what happens when I think.