The Keeper’s Door
I took a deep breath and knocked on the door. Waited. Silence. I curled and uncurled my hands three times, wondering whether to knock again. Just as I made up my mind, my right hand instinctively rising to the panel of dark wood between the two smoky plates of frosted glass, I heard a thump from behind the door. I could make out a shadow moving inside. I lowered my hand to my side. I heard a vague rumble of a voice, muffled by the distance and the heavy wood of the door. Then slow, heavy footsteps. The shadow grew larger until it filled the glass, obscuring all light that was peeling through to me. Then There was a clinking sound, metal-on-metal. A loose chain, jangling like atonal bells. A deep, guttural thud as the key turned over the lock once. Twice. I felt the air, displaced as the door shifted from its frame and then slowly, slowly, the door silently glided open.
Towering a full head and shoulders over me, his presence filled the doorframe completely. My eyes searched for his, above his bristling beard, wound like shiny wire wool and completely obscuring his face. Eventually I managed it, difficult as it was with the light refracting off of the thick bottle-bottom lenses of his round spectacles. I felt the faintest hint of a smile as we made eye contact, but it soon disappeared. He inhaled, his huge chest expanding like an industrial bellows and I felt my palms wet with perspiration while I waited for what he might say.
“So it’s you again,” he said in his thundering baritone. “I suppose this must be … the third time? Or the fourth?”
I let the question hang in the air as he took off his glasses and, with a hanky removed from his faded corduroy trouser pocket, he polished them off before looking up to the light through them. He nodded to himself slightly and set them back onto the bridge of his large bulbous nose. “Speak, lad,” he said, a note of irritation colouring his words this time.
“I suppose the third,” I replied, inwardly cursing myself for the tremble in my voice. “I …”
“I don’t have time,” he cut me off before I could go on. “… for the carefree comings and goings of someone like you. Oh, I remember the time, at your age, when things were different. All sorts of mischief I’d find myself in. Causing bother and who knows what else. But today … today I like things to be a little quieter.” He angled his face down at mine more intently now. I could smell his breath, each word laced with stale coffee and the pipe smoke that sometimes wafted out of darkened windows, a few feet from where I stood. “What do you suppose,” he went on, “might happen to you, should you continue to persevere in disturbing me from my affairs, young man?”
It felt like a threat and I swallowed hard. Hard enough that the sound of it cut through the silence of the deserted lane where we stood. I looked down at my scuffed shoes and saw myself moving my weight from one to the other. I looked at his weathered hands, balled into loose fists. I imagined what even the most half-hearted blow might do to me and my small frame. I looked up again and his eyes were fixed on me, still. They were intense, a lively brown with flecks of green illuminating the edges of his irises. His brow was rigidly furrowed into a firm frown and I could barely detect the heaving of his breath.
“Cat got your tongue?” he asked, another feint wave of halitosis blowing warm on my face.
“I suppose,” I said. “I mean, I think it might lead to quite a lot of trouble for me. But I’m not here looking for trouble. I tell you truthfully, I’m really not.”
“Then what is it that you are here for, exactly?”
“I came here because I had no choice,” I said, stifling a whimper. My eyes darted to either side of me. “None of this was ever meant to happen. I was trying to do things the right way. I was trying not to do something that might bring me grief. But I made a mistake. Something went wrong and it’s my fault and the only thing I could do was to come here and to try to put that right.”
My chest was heaving. My hands were trembling. I concealed them behind my back, hoped he hadn’t seen this sign of weakness in me.
“I’ll ask you once more,” he said. “I’ll ask you very plainly. And I don’t want any more stupid answers. No more foolish stories. Do you hear me?”
I nodded, yes, and sniffed hard.
“What,” he boomed, “exactly … do you … want?”
The silence hung palpably in the air. I looked around one last time. The lane was still deserted. Even the walls of the houses seemed to be looking away from me, unwilling to acknowledge my pleading eyes, desperate for support.
“All I want,” I said, taking in a huge breath. I looked up at him and bit the corner of my lip to regain my composure. “All I want—and this is the last time—all I want is for you to throw my football back over the wall. Please!”
“All right, lad,” he said, after a short pause. “But it’d better be the bloody last time as well.”
The Itch
About five years ago I met her.
I knew, from the first minute, that this was an itch I'd have to scratch.
We tried to keep it platonic for a while, but it was totally futile.
She had a boyfriend.
I had a girlfriend.
Neither of us wanted out of our relationships.
But for one weekend, nothing was taboo.
I suspect that hotel room still remembers.
I know we both do.
Last Meal
What to have for my last meal?
Oysters, shrimp or tender veal?
Should I blow out with a burger feast?
Or indulge my love for food of the far east?
Something simple or something elegant?
Or go all out with a first taste of elephant?
If I find myself dining on death row,
There's only one thing that I know:
I won't be having a low calorie dish.
Pile it high, chef, and make it delish!
A window to darkness
For the third night in a row, right on time, it woke me. That sound of the rattling and something impacting hard against something else. It wasn't regular, stopping and starting, so it couldn't be a machine. It was living. I rolled over and pulled the duvet up over my head. My left hand under my pillow, squeezing it against my ear. Still it got through, the percussive sound, reverberating inside my skull. I sat up, throwing off the duvet and fumbling around in the dark for the jeans I'd discarded by the bed the night before. I slipped them on and fought my way, blearily, into the t-shirt slung over the desk chair. I opened the door, being careful to release the catch as gently and silently as possible. I crept out on to the landing, swiping at my phone screen to turn on the torch and then began to descend, one stair at a time. At the front door, the light of the moon illuminated the hallway through the stained glass panel in the centre, casting unafmiliar, angular shadows. I felt my way along the wall and found the entrance to the basement. I felt my heart rate surge, my breathing getting shallower and forced myself to count to ten. Deep breaths. When I felt just a little calmer, I turned the old fashioned, iron key and opened the latch.
As soon as I opened the door it hit me. The smell of something rancid. Stale. Then the wealth of possibilities started flashing through my mind. Rats. Maybe even maltreated dogs. I put my foot on the first step, felt the slippery texture of some kind of dust beneath the thin sole of my slippers. I grasped the wall beside me, almost no light as I descended. Then I heard it. A voice.
"Hello?" it said. "There's a light. On the right, near the bottom of the stairs. He uses it when he feeds me."
I switched on the light and the brightness stung my eyes, who knows how it felt for him. Now I could see him, he was wearing a suit, but it was tatty, and hanging off him. He'd been here a while. I was just about to unfasten the catch when I saw his breifcase and documents strewn across the floor. He was a window salesman. I locked the door as I left.
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