Leave your worries by the sea

Let the waves carry them out

Into the open blue

With each wave

Comes each thought

With each sand granule

Comes feelings leached onto musings

Be the wave of hope

Upon your new self

Be the sand pieces

Which add onto the rock

Of self desire

The love you carry from the sea

To other worlds

Will always find a home

For that love

Will fight harder

Than any thunderstorm

Which swallows a man whole

Out in the open sea

Oh mother

I’m sorry we’re hurting you

I’m sorry we’re not listening to your cries

Us humans, hurt anything great

Our selfishness defines our love

Our hunger defines our wealth

Our nurturing defines our personality

From pandemics

To earthquakes

To tornados

You’re warning us

Some are listening

Most are defining their love, wealth, and personality

We need to be stronger for you

We need to be compassionate for you

Oh mother

I’m so sorry

As the whimsical air clouds the euphoric waters

As the sea of tenderness encases you in vehemence

The strong pull of lightning rips the atmosphere

The drum of tears from the swift froth

Fall upon the treacherous meditative depths

Caging the receptive perception in starlight

Raging in through the skies of psyche

Pulsating senses from the spacious branches

Into the pierced crystals of a pillowed warmth

An awakened glow materializes

Reaching the tumultuous labyrinths

Never unearthing portals of balanced sanity

Let your soul flutter

As your heart skips

Let the light of shimmer

Invite you in

You’re only a being tonight

A being of selfishness

Encapsulated by the warmth of pearls

Brought unto the heated glaze of the moon

Sitting in the ever granules of glass

Avoiding the deepness

As the shimmer settles

Calling to you in ardor

She awakens as she steps foot

Only allowing little distance

As the glimmer dances across her feet

She steps farther

Into the glowing vibrations of silk

Only to come out tantalizingly strong

She is a spellbind in an enchantment

The lustrous of her skin

Manifesting the world around her

She’s whole

She’s new

Meditation. You’re not supposed to feel enlightened in the moment, in fact you’re supposed to feel frustrated. Very frustrated. You’re taking your deepest thoughts that you buried out of the back of your mind and bringing them center forward. You have no idea what kind of emotions you will uncover, you have no idea what your reaction will be, and you have no idea how healed you will feel after. Sitting with those emotions is essential to knowing who you are, it’s essential to understanding why and how you are. Once you learn to sit with them, you’ll learn to let go of them as you’re recovering. It will never be tranquil until you learn liberation.

Small talk is a pet peeve of mine. It’s not meaningful enough. That’s why when I start conversing with someone and we connect on a semi-deep to a deeper level, I know we’ll get along just fine. It’s difficult being closed off but open to new people and experiences, sometimes you have to take a chance to see where that friendship or relationship will go. Vulnerability. That word haunts every millennial like knowing coffee is the only thing that will get them through the day in this high-stressed environment. It’ll bring you to your knees, it will tear you apart. But coming out, you’ll be stronger. You’ll be able to put yourself out there more when our society conglomerate is charged on anxiety and riveted in the past. Don’t celebrate your life to change it for someone else, celebrate your life to change it for you. It’s easier said than done, but that’s in parallel to living your life. Anything in life is easier said than done, but it’s up to you to decide when and how you want to change it. Take small steps (even if they’re the tiniest steps a zoologist has ever seen), you’ll eventually grow bigger feet and will be able to get to your open clearing faster. Within that time of growth, you would see your journey through the forest of unrequited angst, love, and emptiness.

Angst because the crippling fear of the future is just that, crippling. Being confident in who you are, mirrors the future back to you. No matter what happens in life, you’ll know that it’ll only last for some time. So you either have to fix it or make the best of it.

Love because whether it’s self-love or it’s the love you have for another, the one common factor with both is you. Romantic love for another is not as common in today’s society. Why? Because here we are putting ourselves on the line for someone, only for them to not feel as deep as we do because A) they’re either too scared or B) they have someone on the back burner waiting for their go signal. We are punishing ourselves because of the high stress environment we live in, but also because we don’t see the true value of a companionship. Where does this all begin? With you. The person reading this. The person who lost themselves to heartache a while ago. The person who deserves every ounce of happiness and love from themselves. Life can be brutal when playing the game of self-punishment. So put your shield down and let life show you all the ways to happiness, starting from you. Romantic love can happen anywhere, any time, with anyone you have a connection with. Don’t let yourself stop being happy because you don’t think you’re worthy.

Emptiness stems from both angst and love, maybe being by yourself is not enough because you haven’t truly found yourself or your purpose here on earth. You can runaway as far as you want, but they will always follow you. Why? Because it evolves from within. It’s hard to believe that self-responsibility resonates with self-love when it comes to taking accountability for who you are. That my friend, is how you know you’re human.

Emotions are raw. They’re what make us whole, a biased whole, but whole nonetheless. Don’t be too hard on yourself. Love yourself for you through this process, don’t forget who you were. Humbleness comes from knowing how you got there, not where you’re supposed to go.

And during the morning sunrise,

I yearn to release my body

Unknot it of the rigidness

The strain

The stress

So I can breathe

So I can diminish

So I can understand myself again

So I can center myself

Ground myself

Learn to let new light in

Learn to let go of old tremors

Learn to heal the fiery depths of my soul

Then I’ll go about my day