Emotions run high with the tide

The pain I see in her eyes

The agony there

hidden by laughter and smiles

Just one good day would be completely worth her while

And Day by day

she hides the contents of her heart

The world outside can't prepare for the magnitude of her art

She finds solace in singing and songs

Spilling her life in the words that she writes

A heart riddled with sorrow

And no way to find the light

All she craves is peace for one night

A beauty such as hers is rare

Far and few between

The shadows of her soul

Leaking out from between the seams

Patched together by a broken heart and pipe dreams

She's magical in her own right

Magical and broken is what makes her more than she seems.

There's an air of mystery surrounding her

It's a calm filled with intrigue

Passion and resilience

Mixed with promise

and disproportionate symmetry

She shines like the stars in the night sky

Overcoming adversity

She flies

High in the air

Brought down by none

She's got strong wings

And she dances to the beat of her own drum

If only there was a way to capture the essence of what makes her who she is

But do so would dim down

What is her very existence

She's an anomaly in what has become

Such a selfishly dependent world

She is Aphrodite in human form

And yet She is all goddess

not merely a girl.

-s.

Will you still love me

Even when I'm drowning

When I'm slipping and I can't catch hold of the raft?

When my body is sinking under farther and farther

And my head is consumed by the pain of the ghosts of my past?

Will you still love me

Even when I'm losing touch with the person that I once was

When everything around me has become bleary and dark?

When I see the world as a heartless place

And my inner demons seek to tear me apart?

Will you still love me

Even when I lash out at you

Because you're the only one I feel comfortable with

Enough to show you when I'm ugly?

Will you still love me

Even when I tell you

That I don't need anybody to love me?

Will you smile and shake your head

And look me in the eyes

And tell me that every negative thing my head has convinced me of

Are nothing more than lies?

Will you still love me even when I drive you batty

And you feel close to pulling out your hair

Will you laugh at me and tell me I'm being silly

While assuring me that no matter how frustrated I may make you

we both know that you'll always care

Will you watch me as I gaze in the mirror at my own reflection

And attempt to counteract my own disgust?

Will you still love me when I tell you that I am not worth your love?

Will you hold me when I'm crying in the middle of the night

Shaking from the violence of the emotion pouring out of me from within?

Will you promise me you'll always be there

Even when I refuse to let you in?

When the monsters in my head seek to destroy the last bit of my soul

Will you go to battle for me

And under my banner

fight for me while I fight my hardest to remake myself whole?

And when my heart is breaking into itty bitty peices

Because I feel the world is better off without me in it

Will you still love me even then?

When this uphill struggle I face feels like a lost cause

Will you take my hand and fight beside me

And assure me that I can win?

Because it's the times like now

When I'm falling apart

And when I'm being made to believe that I'm loved in some part of everyone's hearts

That I feel as though my soul is just a bag of reused garbage

Riddled by years of visible wear and tear

That I can't see the sunshine behind the shadows anymore

I can't find the light anywhere

I'm trapped in darkness and I can't see my way out

So tell me

Will you still love me when I'm not so pretty

When I'm too much for you

And during times like now

When my monsters are many

And I am alone

Scared

And broken down?

Tell me

When my monsters are many

How will you possibly find a way to love me

Where nobody else knew how?

-s.g.

The difference between you and I

Is that while I know I am strong enough to make it through this life

Without you

I don't want to.

You are everything to me

My moon and my stars

My galaxies and planets

You are the first breath I take each morning

And the first sight I wish to see when I open my eyes

You are every good dream I have upon falling asleep at night

And every positive thought that keeps me going.

You are my inspiration

You are my heart.

I don't want to lose you to another human being

Not when you are the light of my life.

Without you

My world is dim

And dark

And dreary

Without you

I am simply existing.

But when I am with you

I am living

And what a glorious life that is!

-s.

(December 25th 2015, 11:37 AM)