Everything's spinning

My evil is winning

I'm ready to just blend in

Im keeping my head up above the

Surface

While seaweed is pulling me in

Sometimes I think about drowning

Seaweed is pulling me

Down

Giving into my surroundings

How easy it'd be to just

Drown

They’ll coo “you’re strong”

And mock “you’re durable”

It can't be wrong

That I'm not unbreakable

It won't be long before I struggle

Free

From this sickly hold

This ocean has on me

Ever person around you affects you

You learn to not expect to make friends

You know when someone will leave you

You can physically feel the distance

You know that eventually they’ll choose someone else

You know that eventually they’ll be gone

That they’ll get tired of you

That they’ll see their mistake in loving you

That they’ll see why love is poison

That they’ll see why people don’t stay

But that’s simply in the past...

Present..

Future.

I see it coming miles before it does

But they say they’re different

They aren’t

They’ll leave too

Just watch and wait

..there they go another person that grew tired of me.

One day I will find my heart again.

The lonely road you never should have took

I wish you would have let me pull you back

Your stupid contagious grin

Our time beside the babbling brook

I take it all back

You can't hurt me anymore

You should have let me help you

I knew better than to trust your smile

The fangs that glimmerd with gore

Why did you hurt me too

I can feel it rise and burn, the churning bile

It rises when I think you just couldn't fight anymore

Your gnashing fangs caught on me

They rippid a pieces away

You didn't even fight you couldn't even try

You thought we would be free

But I am not whole since, that day

I try to laugh and cry

But you took that with you

When you decided to die

You took my hope laughter and love

You took my heart when you decided to die

You never even knew that you were my heart when you decided to die.

You thought you were making things better

I know you thought you were broken

You thought you couldn't be fixed

You didn't even leave a letter

You didn't leave anything but that cigerette still smoken'

My feelings are so mixed

I love you no matter where you go or what you do

But you took that peice of me with you

The day you decided to die

My heart is broken

My head has spoken

I'll take the high road like I should

You said it's meant to be

That it's not you, it's me

You're leaving now for my own good

That's cool, but if my friends ask where you are I'm gonna say

He left like a coward

Our time together soured

He couldn't even message for an hour

Help me, I'm no good at being abandoned!

He never even answered

My calls and texts now plastered

In every chat, with some slander

I'm all out of ways to understand

How you leave me like that

My pride still feels the sting

You were my everything

Some day I'll find a love like yours (a love like yours)

He'll think I'm super sweet

Not a poisoned treat

And will not call me a liar then ignore

That's cool, but if my friends ask where you are I'm gonna say

Listened and lied

That no longer flied

But still you couldn't deny

Help me, I'm no good at being abandoned!

I was there even when you lacked

Anything but to attack

Waited paiently for you to circle back

I'm all out of ways to understand

How you leave me like that

I wanna forget everything you put me through

I wanna start over anew...

But you don't want to

That's cool, but if my friends ask where you are I'm gonna say

That's cool, but if my friends ask where you are I'm gonna say

He left like a coward

Our time together soured

He couldn't even message for an hour

Help me, I'm no good at being abandoned!

He never even answered

My calls and texts now plastered

In every chat, with some slander

I'm all out of ways to understand

How you leave me like that

Listened and lied

That no longer flied

But still you couldn't deny

Help me, I'm no good at being abandoned!

I was there even when you lacked

Anything but to attack

Waited paiently for you to circle back

I'm all out of ways to understand

How you leave me like that

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50 ways to say goodbye by train

I feel the slow crushing of familiarity

My feelings chipping away

Still I hold onto hope

Hope that I make it

That we make it

But I can feel the distance lengthen

As the silence grows longer

If my bad thoughts are right

Then I can say I’m a prophet

If they’re wrong like I hope they are

Then it’s just the bad taking over my mind

God I hope I’m wrong

You spend so much time

Telling yourself you’re okay,

That when you finally realize

You’re not okay,

You end up drowning in

Your own goddamn thoughts.

A truly great writer is a writer that not only is writing for their own soul to be given away. They also do it for their life to be fulled and to bring more light. A true writer is anyone who can bring feeling and emotion from words, create a world where the limit is the laungue you write in. The style and technicalities are up to the artist. Just as it is up to a physical artist choses their medium. Art can have precieved flaws but it doesn't decrease its value.

The wind blows and I can sense the waters.

It's salty unlike the others.

"Splash... Splash..." as my roots were washed,

thinking if I am meant to last.

To climate change, they say I'm a weapon

but I'm also on the brink of extinction.

Yes, sometimes the world is unfair

but I'm a home to those that needed care.

A shelter for animals and sea creatures

while bonding with the Mother nature.

With this I've created a family

and a view that gives sanity.

I keep communities safe from the dangers of the storm

while holding tight even if it breaks my form.

Why do I need to survive the waves?

Do I really need to be brave?

The nature of mine to survive the tides

while leaning and clinging on the sides.