In the back of her mind, there was always a darkness. A twisted sense she couldn't control, but it was always pushed back into the depths of her mind. Hidden from the world so well, it could only reveal itself in her dreams. It left her terrified of her own anger and jealousy, so she banned negative emotion from her life. Chasing it away with laughter and fake rainbows, she almost felt free. She inspired people with her happiness, but wondered what they would think if they saw the battle inside.

When we dance, time stays still.

It sits, unmoving and blurred as we see into each other’s eyes, into each other’s emotions, into the music, and into the moment.

Our moment.

She lays her head on my shoulder and my head leans against hers in return, as our silhouetted figures flow in a movement of beauty and unity.

We flow forever.

Well.

At least until the song ends.

the wind blows

leaves rustle around my heart

leaves in reds and oranges

I wonder where you spend your days

how you veil your nights

I am drowning in heartache,

in the leaves

now lying on the ground,

and in your eyes

that tell only the truth

One of the biggest questions in the universe, "what is love?". The answer is very simple. Love is coal. When you first see him/her, it starts a fire, a fire that will continue to grow as you grow closer. It warms you up on rainy days, and gives you hope in the darkness. As you face issues together, the coal is put under pressure. As time goes on, your coal, is placed under more and more pressure. At some point in time your coal will face a choice, it will either break or become a diamond. If it chooses to become a diamond, the coal will grow stronger, the fire hotter. If it chooses to break, the fire will die.

She turned away as a tear started down her cheek. Her heart sinking with every step, because she knew there was no going back to him. The eyes that made her heart stop, the voice which caused her legs to quiver, pushed out of her life forever.

There was no attempting to explain. She couldn't put into words the reason she had to break his heart, and the reason she had to break her own. Even if she could find the words, he would never believe her, not for a second. So silently, she walked onward, shutting him out of her life for good.

Middle school, no one like it that much, there are so many reasons not to like it and this is why i despised it.

I never really had good friends that i trusted with my personal feelings and life. I told my very best friend about something really embarrassing about myself and i expected her to keep it quiet. Boy was i wrong. She told my entire grade about it and then eventually the entire school know about one of my most embarrassing moment but i managed to got through that year because i had my sister to protect me and stop them from hurting me too much.

I still had to go back to that school the next year and it was worse no one would talk to me unless it was to verbally assault me so i almost stopped going to school entirely. It scared my parents so they got me a new therapist because i did not trust my current one and she told me i had major anxiety. The next day my mom went to my school again to tell my principle what was going on but she did not want to admit that there was any problem at her school so she just brushed it off again and said that i should come to school more and that i needed to buck up. She also said that they were just teasing me and that it was all fun and game, "don't take it so seriously" she said. How can you not take it seriously when it's all about you and you had no one at the school to stand up for you. It lonely and hard so i became depressed and had suicidal though almost every day and could barely wake up in the mornings.