Enter Myself

I want to enter myself

I want to dig deep below the surface of my skin,

putting my fingers into the bloody pool

is how I want my purification to begin.

I want to walk inside myself

I want to spray graffiti along the subways of my brain,

these long, winding roads to nothing

have rendered me insane.

I want to swim inside myself

I want to feel the thickness of my blood,

the weight of it, the pull of it, weigh me down

in this self-made androgynous mess

it is time for me to drown.

24/8/10

The video to this poem is here-

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o3ctHQBx9xQ

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