I want to enter myself
I want to dig deep below the surface of my skin,
putting my fingers into the bloody pool
is how I want my purification to begin.
I want to walk inside myself
I want to spray graffiti along the subways of my brain,
these long, winding roads to nothing
have rendered me insane.
I want to swim inside myself
I want to feel the thickness of my blood,
the weight of it, the pull of it, weigh me down
in this self-made androgynous mess
it is time for me to drown.
24/8/10
The video to this poem is here-
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o3ctHQBx9xQ
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