Silently......

I scream

That

I'm so lost

Without you

Silently.....

I call out

Your name

Because

I miss you

Silently......

I cry

For

I'm still in love

With you

-Jessa

I wish I was the pills you took,

So I was still with you.

Or the liquor you washed them down with.

I contemplate the changes I could have made.

And you said you would stay forever.

Forever came too soon.

I hurt myself for being hurt by you.

Sometimes I believe I'll fail at life.

And partake in things I've seen you do.

and it comes back to me,

Round and around again.

Suicide was not the answer.

But its always my question.

Jesus Fucking Christ

A Gnat to my left ear

and fat electric green cunt of a fly to my right ear

and my teeth are fucked

and Im still sober

and I want to live and I want to die

and Buddha says Fuck it.

No drugs. No booze. No escape.

Yield to.

The End.

Imagine

our ghosts

on strings

attached in a

way somehow

unknown

to giant

unseen

copper bells

their music

floating

into the sky

without trying

and echoing

awhile

to whispers

then

silence

so we know

they

let go