It’s like Soon as I subscribe An we on the same page you come out with another issue

Wanting to throw in the towel like rocky Cuz I don’t even get you

Could’ve held me down while I hold it together

Instead you turned me cold like your favorite weather

So I’m back to only fuckin with hoes cuz at least I know their intentions

Old Shawty from New York was a real one so she get an honorable mention

Burned that bridge too many times so now she done with construction

Tempted to pull up on her cuz I have a degree in seduction

I moved up, ducking old hoes like I’m Anaheim

Careful not to apply too much pressure they don’t deserve my time

Better by myself than I could ever be with you

Sit back an watch the climb continue

I haven’t met all of me yet

Feelings I haven’t experienced

Thoughts I haven’t pondered on

And Love I haven’t fully surrendered to

I haven’t met all of me yet

Maybe the weight of the target on my chest will subside

Maybe one day I’ll be strong enough to be let myself be weak

Maybe one day the pressure of having to be twice as good as the next will finally break

Maybe one day I’ll figure out a way to create space to grow ,with feeling alone

I haven’t met all of me yet

Soon and very soon I’ll get the energy to keep going even though I’m exhausted

Soon and very soon existing in peace and prosperity will be the norm

Soon an very soon I’ll be daring enough to be the image rather than reflect one

I haven’t met all of me yet

But I can’t wait to meet him

Damn girl why you keep putting me in this same position

You act and talk one way then you end up switchin

You knocked on the doors of my heart an I let you in with permission

Never should have let you back in cuz now our bond is slippin

Whatever happen to you an me forever

Was all that shit just for some sexual pleasure

And no I’m not only blaming you, yea I played a part

But I damn I ain’t never played like this with your heart

An even when I just tried to be there just for support

You acted like I had a hidden agenda just so my efforts came up short

Say you wanna be closer but constantly push people away

By the time you realize what we had was real I’ll have nothing left to say....

Why does my heart have so much hope for you

Call up the doctor and give me the drug that gets me unattached

Tired of opening up my heart and you won’t even match

This shit embarrassing got me questioning myself

Asking what I can do better knowing I’m giving it all I got

Nah forget all that, you’re getting the boot

You used me for the very last time I’m pulling up the root...

It feels like I’m floating in a boat with no paddle

Feels like I’m riding a horse with no saddle

It’s like I’m sinking in quick sand an nobody can hear me scream

Nobody to pinch me an wake me up from this dream

Tired of this never ending cycle

You hurt me, then I hurt them, now we all fucked up

How do you recover from something that hasn’t even ended yet

They say it’s best to take chances in life

But damn does every situation gotta end up in strife

Where the map to find the right road

Been wondering for a long time an I need to get rid of this load

I’m sinking I’m drowning

Only you can save me

But instead of throwing out the life rope which is your love

You stand there and watch me struggle

Inching closer and closer to keep my hopes up

Only to take 3 steps back

Was everything you told me a lie?

Do you only love the concept of me?

Or was I just something there to pass time

Questions race thru my head

Got me feeling that without you I’d be better dead

You’re turning from a blessing to a lesson

Like tiller I’m praying a different prayer

Praying that I fall out of this trap called love...

It started when I first looked into your eyes

A connection that is undeniable came to my surprise

Energy lemme tell you about that energy

Did everything I could just to get you near me

Awe, is how I describe you, the wonders of the world can’t compare

You have my heart under lock and key and I wanna give you the spare

Strength, wow you are oh so strong

You hold your head up an manage to smile even when things go wrong

Caring, this is an adjective you express to the fullest extent

No matter how far we run in the opposite direction it still manages to feel present

From the generic check ups to the smallest details

I notice, an it amazes me when your affection prevails

Connection, we vibe like perfect harmony

With you I am truly my REAL self, I want a daily dose from your pharmacy

Happinesses, this is the feeling I get most often

It’s your goofy personality that keeps making my exterior soften

Last but certainly not least there’s Love

I don’t feel like there’s a straight forward definition cuz trust me I’ve looked, but its as pure as a dove

It took me a while to understand that it’s different for everyone

An for me these are the emotions that make you my special someone

As you read this I hope you know that these words have true meaning

Because when its all said and done, you make me feel like i'm dreaming