The Coming Frost
Crawling on to a craggy cliff
Stretched on a rock, I catch a whiff
of frost-nipped poignant pine.
Rocky ridges map my spine.
Secondhand warmth chases the chill
on the sun baked rocks of the south faced hill.
I sniff the sharpness of the coming freeze
heaving up on the nightly breeze.
When the moon comes up, the frost will settle
over the valley like a dew-dropped petal.
But for now, only stars puncture the gloom
A peek through the curtains of a celestial room.
Echoing off of the canyon wall,
I hear the moan of an owl's call,
And the weeping of the river far beneath
Meandering on toward the wild heath.
Everything Else is a Lie
It took me years decide
What I wanted to be in life
But something I developed in an hour
Was more meaningful than all of that
Combined
See I never believed in truth
Because truth is just a word we use
When part of what we say might be right
But most of time it isn't
So I began to say to myself
That there is only one truth
And this truth is painful
For it's the ones closest to us
Who lie to us the most
But that isn't the truth you see
That's only because they talk to us the most
See the truth is
It doesn't matter what you say
The only truth in this world
Is that everything else is a lie.
You left a mark
On my skin
Where your fingers
Dug in
When you grabbed me
And begged me to stay
But in all honesty
I had to get away
I couldn't take
The way I had to be
Around you
I wanted to be me
Your tears didn't fall
They stopped to rest
On your cheek
Like unwelcome guests
I couldn't help
But to hurt
And our pain
Left marks on the dirt
Just for You
I stood alone
in a vast field of wildflowers
shielding my eyes
from the sun
crazy dazzling beautiful
it was
patiently waiting
for that perfect flower
to speak up
and
gloriously represent
what you mean
to me
and then I spotted it
isolated
perfect
and I plucked it
from the rich earth
wrapping it carefully
giddy with excitement
but when you opened my gift
you looked puzzled
and sad
the wilted stem
the moldy leaves
the bugs squirming in its center
and
looking up at my face
you asked why…
Fuck you. That’s why.
Not Mine To Write
When I have strong feelings for a guy
I tend to write him into my stories.
Maybe not as a whole specific character
But I'll use his characteristics
Because they're so appealing to me
You know?
I'll write his soulful sea-green eyes,
That sidelong glance he gives me
After he's told an awful pun;
The way his shoulder blades
Protrude slightly from the back of his t-shirt,
And how his face gets so red in the cold.
I'll write the calm deepness of his voice
And the lightness of his laughter,
The way he looks when he's
Lost in thought,
The blush that creeps onto his cheeks and ears
When I give him a compliment;
The shape of his arms when he's lifting something.
I'll write how he mirthfully narrows his eyes
In false dislike
When we run into each other without planning to,
And how his lips then immediately spread into a smile
He can't control
As his eyes sparkle with mischief and a hint of something
I don't understand
And want to understand.
I'll write how he tries to be a Cool Guy,
Suavely nodding to anyone around him,
And how he turns into an absolute dork
When I'm around.
How his smooth words
Turn into awkward but endearing comments;
And how he's so hardcore when he raps,
But gets just a little bit nervous around me,
And how he wrote a song about me
But won't admit it because he's embarrassed
Even though it's obviously about me.
And I fall in love all over again with the character I wrote.
And sometimes my writing makes it hard to distinguish
The difference
Between it and the actual person.
I have to remind myself:
You are not my character.
You are not my character.
My character is based on you,
And just because my character would do or say this and that
It doesn't mean you would.
Just because my character has this flaw,
Doesn't mean you have the same one.
Just because my character becomes a hero when he least expects it,
Doesn't mean you will.
Just because my character falls in love with the girl who loves him,
Doesn't mean you did.
Just because my character doesn't leave her at the end,
Alone and wishing
She'd never told him how she felt,
And never let herself be so vulnerable
And feel so intensely
For someone who would just
Let her down,
Doesn't mean you didn't.
Because you did.
I can control my character,
To some extent.
But you are not my character.
SCARS
{AUTHORS NOTE} I chose this piece for many reasons, only one of which was more exposure for this particular piece. I have a lot of scars, inside and out, self-inflicted both in unintentional fun and deliberate rage, as a victim of violence and happenstance. This poem is as much about me as it is everyone else.
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They mar the flesh, the mind and the soul.
Yet without them we wouldn’t really be whole.
Every tare leaves its trace, inside or out.
Some spawn confidence, others root doubt.
A self inflicted relief,
an adolescent mistake.
A reminder of grief,
a blessing to appreciate.
An exploratory outlet,
an intriguing fascination.
A lesson learned,
a stigmatic recreation.
Unexpected interruptions of our reality.
Causing lasting impacts on our “normality.”
Consciously or not, reshaping our mentality.
Even provoking bursts of utter irrationality.
Knowing or otherwise, not a soul is pristine.
Damage to the psyche can go lifetimes unseen.
But not all the wounds we bare are of damnation.
There may be marks that came of our salvation.
Not just a scar, but a keepsake with a story.
A badge of honor and a never forgotten glory.
Some come by choice, other just by chance.
Next time you see one, don’t just side-glance.
|| another-proser ||
My poetic life
For me, poetry has been a release. It has been part of my therapeutic process in life. I started writing when I was a sophomore in high school. For years, I suffered under the tyranny of many a bully. I was the fat, geeky kid that tried to fit in. Even some of the nerds made fun of me. Yet, I did have a few friends that knew how to treat me with some respect. At this time, I got into, The Doors. I remember listening to them on Classic Rock stations, and instantly fell in love. I learned about Jim's poetry, and found what I could, absorbing as much as possible. My early writes were terrible, long-winded, but a great way for me to get through my days in hell school. Each word pulled the darkness inside, letting in more light and clarity as to who I was, and what I needed to do with myself in life. Over the years, I was able to keep improving, and learning as much as I could, trying many styles as I could. I have 2 or 3 poems printed online, do not remember where though, hahaha! I do have a few self-published books available on my blog (www.thewaytoshaolin.blogspot.com), but no luck selling. Still, I enjoy the process, and what it does for me still, gets my mind working and working, cleansing and purging each time. I have also branched out into more subjects, especially my favorite, Horror!!! I am loving Prose, and the many wonderful writers on here. Hope you enjoy my story! Laterz!! ;)
PROSE IGNITES MY HEAT
Never know how much I love you, Prose
never know how much writers care
when you enclose me in your open arms
you give me heat to write and flare
sky’s the limit, I’m not censored
fellow writers flash daytime with ideas
Prose flames moonlight by its challenges
guides me along the fire of promise
shared with group of fevered creators
gypsy souls intensify my imagination
roll my verve down flamed inspiration
flared open to suggestions and thoughts
Prose exposes me to delirium of my essence
encourages me to strike in new directions
I light up when I call the name of Prose
because I know that it will treat me right
now you know how much I love you
igniting creativity until I glow my torch.