busy, part one

i was

so busy

every time i tried to

work on this

one.

there is

a place

in the mind

expanse of fluctuating

sand

dust

dark cold

tepid cackling

which would

fail the

turing test

a large part of the mind that is not

significantly or provably

human

two.

in another place,

whispers whispers whispers,

where the mind

says

look

look here.

for this one moment of peace, eternal suffering

says if if if if if if

if.

someone wanted this

so much that they would

damn themselves

then it must

have been worth it

can anything that is worth it be wrong?