A plan, plan a , plan z i always have to have one

and yet, now comes the day when literally I have none!

I love you, my heart longs for you and that's all I know

so I pack my things , and grab my dog. Ready, set, go!

i should be scared, ask the what ifs, this is a long trip!

but I don't argue,i just know it's something I can't skip

To be with you I'll risk it all without a second glance

your love is intoxicating im hopelessly in your trance.

Despite the heartache and all of the baggage in the past

I know I can trust you and I have no need to even ask

while my life began a tragedy it's clear as day to me

they had to happen first,so happy ever after will we be

Your hair, the way it dances with the wind, swirling to and fro. Carefree and as soft as the very first snow. Your ears, so soft and warm to the touch. I put my lips up closely, I want to whisper much. Your eyes, like a beautiful sea of green. So gentle, so inviting , and simply never ever mean. Your nose , so perfect and so very cute. I'm completely in love, I'm in hot pursuit. Does it stop there? Oh honey,not by a mile! But how do I begin to describe that gorgeous smile? You light up the room every time you grin. I will do anything just to see that smile again. Your lips taste like the heavens first light. At least that's what I imagine until I experience them in a few nights. The neck down I won't describe because that's just for me. Sorry boys and girls, this poem's only rated pg. I will tell you this, she's not only looks, she funny and smart, and loves lots of books. Yes she's nerdy and rather quite goofy at times. It's what I love most, she's my partner in crimes. Oh yes, she has a heart as big as the sky. If you need something done , believe me , she'll try. No she's not perfect, she is still human you see. But to me imperfectly perfect will she always be. Honey we fight about this one so I had no choice but to post. Time and time again there is no doubt, I love you most!!!

same old day, nothing spectacular to tell

get up, brush your teeth, another day in hell

work all day, drive all night, not another soul in sight

lonely, lonely all the time, this certainly can't be right

my heart is broken, it's completely shattered on the floor

I cannot trust, never again, I have her to thank that for

all of my dreams, my hopes, where might they  be?

I gave them to her, and she threw them in the sea

now  a month has gone by but I still feel insane

nobody gets  why I continue to feel pain

they try to comfort me and say I was meant for more

but part of me was gone the day she went out the door

its not her I'm missing that's what they don't see

the funny, the wit, who I really am missing, is me 

who am I now? where do i go? is this all just for show?

lonely, so lonely, and on top of it all, its starts to snow 

but you see I'm a strong spirit and refuse to be beat

though love i shall not, life's race will I complete

a year has gone by now, and surviving seems to be the only goal.

but my friend wants more for me, and signs me up for the dating black hole.

I've talked to people before this, but my heart wasn't in it

the walls are all up , and I'm not coming out, you can forget it!

my friend, she is crazy! what on earth is she thinking?

to suggest i'll find love online? she must've been drinking

despite my protesting i kind of was slightly curious

and someone caught my eye, whats this? i must be delirious

she messaged me, "hey"and said she loved the stuff that I do

she seemed very interesting, and really fun to talk too

days flowed into the next and suddenly I found my inspiration in life

I'd never tell her this but secretly I wanted her to be my wife

caring, loving , funny and smart, she didn't need me but wanted me by her side

she made me smile, and I found myself tearing down the wall, not wanting to hide

am I crazy?so crazy! surely I must be so!!

all of my rules, and cautions went right out the window

somehow it's like I had found my missing piece

as if I'd known her all my life,and I'd never want this to cease

and then that day it made all the sense as I began to grin

my life had to end, so ours could begin

how lucky am I, by mere chance did we meet

She's smart and she's funny, oh boy what a treat!

who is this young lass? I've got to know more

"hey you won that game? I thought we weren't keeping score"

beauty for days and sass equal to boot

keeps me laughing for days, she is such a hoot 

how did I get here? I didn't even try

she tells me that I am the most wonderful guy

more give me more! I've just got to know more!

what makes you tick? what's at your core?

reign it in boy, don't want to scare her away

but I can't help it, I never listen to myself  anyway

I gain the courage and decide I simply must ask

"will you go out with me?'" please Zeus grant me this task

by the gods she said yes! I'm happier than a lark

I'll be dreaming til then, of our day in the park

Your laugh, your smile, your generous cheer

I could tell you anything, I had no fear

Friends forever is what you said

I didn't know why, it boggled my head

For i was plain and ordinary, don't you see?

You said, no way, you're very special to me

I see the inside, your caring heart

That's what matters to me, let's never part

So friends we became,through the good and the bad

You gave me the confidence I never knew I had

Life became busy, and things just came up

But even through all of that, we still made time, if only to say, wassup?

The confidence you gave me? well it slowly grew

I talked to a girl who I barely even knew

We became friends, but it turned into more

Soon wedding bells came, I wasn't alone anymore

Then Donovan came and swept you off your feet

We both were finally happy, now we were complete

But We both had dreams to make our families grow

And when the children came, it seemed all of our ducks were in a row

But fate, she is the most cruel mistress of them all

She took you too soon, and all I got was one last call

You're gone now I know , but I need you to see

Always and forever, friends will we be

Today's the day, so hold your head up high

fight the urge to lose all control

they can't know, they mustn't, you cannot cry

so much sorrow and pain held deep inside 

Always the first to help others through their sorrows

but who helps you? the rock? the beacon of hope?

you need it now though, because someone might be losing their tomorrow's

something inside whispers, "don't pull back"

You want to trust, but experience tells you no

and yet, he refuses to leave, is this different from before?

no,No,NO!! these are your burdens to bear, you simply cannot show

something inside whispers again, "let him in"

Slowly but surely you let this knight in

he holds you tight, vowing never to let go

this relief, this joy, so overwhelming, you start to grin

maybe, just maybe, you can begin to trust again