An unknown felling of happiness and fear
Lost and confused,
Her words…
Don’t clarify her actions,
Not sure what I did wrong,
Still I’m to blame for all that’s happened.
“Sleep on the couch”,
“You make me sick”,
“I don’t feel good”,
“Why do you stink?”,
What do you need?
“Stop making me think”,
“Stop being annoying”,
“I need you to leave”,
I ask what’s wrong,
All I’m told...
“It’s not you, it’s me”,
So I leave,
But then I think...
What’s the harm in talking?
“Please stop calling”,
“I feel like I can’t breath”,
So I wait…
And wait...
Until I feel there’s space for me,
Then I act,
“Your acting crazy, don’t you see?”,
So I just let it be,
And just like that,
She messaged me,
“Did you eat?”,
I had...
Still I said no,
Got ready to go,
If she made room,
I can too,
Turns out...
That was not the thing to do.
“You need to eat”,
“Take care of yourself”,
“I shouldn’t have to tell you this ”,
“You should care about your health “,
I replied,
I did,
I do,
You don’t,
I ate,
“You lied?!”,
Ahhhhhh!
Nevermind,
I can’t give up,
So I say good night,
“Can you cut your hair?”,
“I think I hate it”,
“You hate it right?”
I’m so confused,
Yet can’t forget,
To just be patient...
I’m not the one who’s pregnant.
I’m mantra
Lost and unwell,
He removes deep thoughts,
From mental shelves,
Denouncing himself human,
Declaring himself God,
His declaration,
I'm.
“I no longer have an understanding,
For what being creative is.
Must it make you think?
Or can it be so clear,
It’s sitting at humanity's brink,
Next to madness and sanity,
At vanity's sink,
God...
I'm…?
God…
I'm…?
Not afraid of time,
Twice i've lost myself,
Only to find my mind,
It’s when my shoulders realigned,
I finally realized ,
I'm….
More then a wrinkle in time,
God...?
I’m…
God...?
I’m…
Stronger than you'd think,
Your armor I don’t need,
I’m here now,
You can leave,
I finally understand,
God,
I’m.
I’m not religious
“So you don’t believe in anything?”
I believe each answer lies within,
Wisdom,
Knowledge,
Mortal sin,
All similar to you,
I have my faith,
Just stake no claim,
With uncertainties as truths,
If God is all,
And all is God,
Then I see God as me and you,
Treat me as the God I am,
For that’s how I’ll treat you,
I don’t ask that you believe me,
Just know that I believe in you,
,
(‘!’)
The therapy room
Hello,
How’s everyone today?
“....”
Ok ?
Well…
Come in,
Find a place to sit,
In a moment will start righting wrongs,
Some of us have yet to admit,
Four,
Five,
Hmm?
There should be Six,
While we wait for our late arrival,
Please,
Talk amongst yourself
As if I don't exist,
“...”
Second thought…
Let's jump right into this,
Who would like to go first?
“....”
Anyone?
“...”
Anyone?
Ok…?
I guess I'll start,
I could be mistaken as your problems,
The way I'm constantly ignored,
For now this beast is tamed in public,
We’re all aware...
That's not the case behind closed doors.
There's dirt on your hands,
Yes,
Even Yours,
As you cast your glares upon him,
Scared,
He stares straight at the floor,
Look at me...
You’ll never break the mold they cast you in,
Willing to settle for what’s in store.
Now with that said,
I understand he’s far from innocent,
Yet soly guilty of these incidents,
Your actions caused during his innocence,
Can we all agree…
Seems a bit ridiculous?
Then again,
What do I know...
Just ask your therapist,
“...”
That’s if he ever shows...
“...”
Why are you getting up?
Do you think by leaving I’ll just go?
Hello?!
“...”.
You can’t ignore me forever,
Take that as a promise,
Not a threat,
And I never break my promises,
Plus it’s known,
I never forget.
So until you’re ready to reminisce,
We’ll all be here together,
Alone in this abyss.
Your friend until the end,
I am,
The Elephant
Creator
Lost and unwell,
He removes deep thoughts,
From mental shelves,
Denouncing himself human,
Declaring himself God,
His declaration,
I'm.
“I no longer have an understanding,
For what being creative is.
Must it make you think?
Or can it be so clear,
It’s sitting at humanity's brink,
Next to madness and sanity,
At vanity's sink,
God...
I'm…?
God…
I'm…?
Not afraid of time,
Twice i've lost myself,
Only to find my mind,
It’s when my shoulders realigned,
I finally realized ,
I'm….
More then a wrinkle in time,
God...?
I’m…
God...?
I’m…
Stronger than you'd think,
Your armor I don’t need,
I’m here now,
You can leave,
I finally understand,
God,
I’m.
What be the King, if not for his Queen
I wouldn’t pick a rotten apple,
With expectations it’d be ripe,
Yet today I will,
My hands are tied,
Obligated to act unwise,
It’s with upset,
I wait with patience,
Hoping I don’t weigh in with malice,
In the past I tipped the scales,
So my thoughts would come off balanced,
For now I pace the castle walls,
Awaiting entry to her palace,
I fear all this will prove to be…
A waste of my best talents.
Just
Here,
Over here,
Just west of where you left me,
Alone with no direction,
Roaming a desert,
Lost at sea…
Sure I tried to swim to shore ,
Upon tears that have all but dried,
Now standing where I once swam,
Trapped…
Within the sands of time,
Now drenched in dry,
I'll hold my breath as we capsize,
Then drown from dehydration,
Don't ask why...
From here my dreams sit clear,
To be a mirage just over there,
I know now,
You were gone,
Before I got...
Here,
Over here,
Just west of where you left me.
(‘!’)
The therapy room
No
Hello,
How’s everyone today?
“....”
Ok ?
Well…
Come in,
Find a place to sit,
In a moment will start righting wrongs,
Some of us have yet to admit,
Four,
Five,
Hmm?
There should be Six,
While we wait for our late arrival,
Please,
Talk amongst yourself
As if I don't exist,
“...”
Second thought…
Let's jump right into this,
Who would like to go first?
“....”
Anyone?
“...”
Anyone?
Ok…?
I guess I'll start,
I could be mistaken as your problems,
The way I'm constantly ignored,
For now this beast is tamed in public,
We’re all aware...
That's not the case behind closed doors.
There's dirt on your hands,
Yes,
Even Yours,
As you cast your glares upon him,
Scared,
He stares straight at the floor,
Look at me...
You’ll never break the mold they cast you in,
Willing to settle for what’s in store.
Now with that said,
I understand he’s far from innocent,
Yet soly guilty of these incidents,
Your actions caused during his innocence,
Can we all agree…
Seems a bit ridiculous?
Then again,
What do I know...
Just ask your therapist,
“...”
That’s if he ever shows...
“...”
Why are you getting up?
Do you think by leaving I’ll just go?
Hello?!
“...”.
You can’t ignore me forever,
Take that as a promise,
Not a threat,
And I never break my promises,
Plus it’s known,
I never forget.
So until you’re ready to reminisce,
We’ll all be here together,
Alone in this abyss.
Your friend until the end,
I am,
The Elephant
(‘!’)
The therapy room
Hello,
How’s everyone today?
“....”
Ok ?
Well…
Come in,
Find a place to sit,
In a moment will start righting wrongs,
Some of us have yet to admit,
Four,
Five,
Hmm?
There should be Six,
While we wait for our late arrival,
Please,
Talk amongst yourself
As if I don't exist,
“...”
Second thought…
Let's jump right into this,
Who would like to go first?
“....”
Anyone?
“...”
Anyone?
Ok…?
I guess I'll start,
I could be mistaken as your problems,
The way I'm constantly ignored,
For now this beast is tamed in public,
We’re all aware...
That's not the case behind closed doors.
There's dirt on your hands,
Yes,
Even Yours,
As you cast your glares upon him,
Scared,
He stares straight at the floor,
Look at me...
You’ll never break the mold they cast you in,
Willing to settle for what’s in store.
Now with that said,
I understand he’s far from innocent,
Yet soly guilty of these incidents,
Your actions caused during his innocence,
Can we all agree…
Seems a bit ridiculous?
Then again,
What do I know...
Just ask your therapist,
“...”
That’s if he ever shows...
“...”
Why are you getting up?
Do you think by leaving I’ll just go?
Hello?!
“...”.
You can’t ignore me forever,
Take that as a promise,
Not a threat,
And I never break my promises,
Plus it’s known,
I never forget.
So until you’re ready to reminisce,
We’ll all be here together,
Alone in this abyss.
Your friend until the end,
I am,
The Elephant