Peanut
Peanut is an eleven-year-old deer head Chihuahua. I found her as a young dog, alone (abandoned?) in a mall parking lot in Texas. She quickly became a most cherished part of our family.
Peanut has many names and answers to them all. Peanut-Weenut, Peanutty, P-Dog, NutterButter, PurtyPeanutGirl, and Peaniferous Maximus are just a sampling. Many songs are sung to her with these names and ridiculous lyrics— to which she happily responds with silly butt wags.
I tell people she is the worst Chihuahua I’ve ever known. She is friendly, calm, sweet, and very quiet (we’ve only heard her bark about 5 times in the past 10 years). Very un-Chihuahua like behavior, right? I guess no one told her to be an evil, shivery ball of snarling spite. I’m glad.
Peanut doesn’t ask for much. She loves walks (read: sniffs), cuddles, and burrowing in my long hair whenever it’s down. Of course, she does insist her “cuteness tax” be paid in a regular and timely manner. Her preferred method of payment is a bit of scrambled egg from my breakfast plate or perhaps a nibble of bacon. However, she is always very polite about her tax collection.
I could have never imagined so much sweet personality would ever be bound in 8 pounds of little dog. Peanut is truly a joy bringer and I’m so happy she is in my life.
Nothing
The first that comes to mind is nothing... Just a vast blankness.
Why is it that we can't think? Can't seem to put words together to form some sort of coherent story. Why can't we put the thoughts in our heads in some sequence that resonates with others.
What is nothing? How is it that we write on nothing.
Nothing is us, and we are nothing.
But there is something beautiful in this nothing of our minds, for we can turn it into something.
A Lone.
A Lone for I am not alone,
I am A Lone.
A Lone wolf,
Content wandering the planes without others to follow.
Crossing paths with others, wondering what its like.
But I will never know.
Because I believe.
I believe that I'm not alone.
I tell myself I am just A Lone- I thought I was A Lone, not alone
Now
I sit alone on your bed,
your cold cotton sheets
press against my hips while
I listen to the drip drop of
the kitchen facet perform
Chinese water torture on
the stainless steel sink.
I wonder where you are, and
why I’m wondering at all.
Why do I miss your arms,
Your soft smile,
Your full laugh,
Your seemingly telepathic
connection to the pain in my body,
The way you run your fingers firmly
up my neck as if there were a map
in your head filled with all the
places I want you to touch me.