I’m not just not talking to you

I’m not talking to you

Or you

Or you

Or you either

I’m mostly just talking to me

Because you

And you

And you

And you too

Don’t deserve to have to carry my weight

Because neither you

Nor you

Nor you

Nor even you

Know how heavy an empty frame weighs

You,

Oh you.

I cannot describe-

You.

The way you feel

The way you make me feel

Your gaze

Your intoxicating gaze

It's addicting

It stops me in my tracks

Stops my very breath

My heart skips

Skips its beat

I can't function

With that gaze

The longing

The need

The gaze

It holds me

My mind stops

Your touch

Fingers trail

Trail lazily

Lazily up and down

Shivers move over me

Shivers dance up

and down

I freeze

Warmth floods me

Warmth covers me

My blood pumps up

and down

Your touch

So intoxicating

So addicting

Your need

Covering me

Freezing me

Warming me

I can't think

Can't think straight

Can't talk straight

Walk straight

I'm a puddle

Your puddle

your breath

Intoxicatingly warm

Sends shivers through me

So close

Can almost touch

Can almost feel

You

Boy

I can't describe what you do

You feel so good

So addictingly sweet

So intoxicatingly warm

Boy

You have me

You got me

You own me

And I can't

Can't describe

How badly I want

Badly I need

You

You are what I yearn for

What stops me in my tracks

What makes me feel so good

And yet

You,

Oh you

I cannot describe-

You.

I'm so absurdly addicted to you

I long for you and need you too

The amount I want

You to rip me apart

To tear me apart

To string me up

To tie me down

To choke my breath

To caress my chest

To gaze down at me

To drag your teeth

To make me bleed

To break me down

To feel me up

To conquer me

To win with me

To take me slow

To rip my clothes

To be selfish

To tease me

To almost kiss

To hold me down

To tease a kiss an inch away

To leave me breathless

To give me pain

To do whatever's on your mind

I'm addicted to you

This is the truth

But don't forget

Every once in a while

I'll end up on top

I'll be the queen you'll bow down to

And I

I shall dominate you

Oh how I hunger for you

It grows day by day

Your lingering gaze

Your soft lips

Your dancing fingers

I want it all

In the most selfish way

I hunger to feel you

Pressing close

To feel your hands lightly choke

Fingers scratching across skin

Biting nipping; let it in

I hunger for everything

Anything your willing to give

A scrap or two is fine by me

Just don't leave me high and dry

Tease me in your selfish ways

Tease me bind me claw away

Fingers running softly down

Lips they travel all around

Tongue, it moves to things untold

My breath is gone my soul is sold

For even just a second more

Is all that I am asking for

I hunger for you constantly

To have you near

My skin will sear

A fire burns where you touch

I hunger for you so damn much

I find for you I'd do anything

All you'd have to do is ring

I prob'ly should be more ashamed

For you I'd do things unnamed

But desperation wrings me tight

Feelings I don't want to fight

Hunger growing constantly

Passion swelling monsterly

Waiting and anticipating

Every touch barely saiting

Hunger gnawing

I am calling

Feed me all you have to give

And in return for you I'll live

It hit me

In a moment;

Mixed with dread

And pleasure

I have no control

Not with you

It's all a myth

The power I had assumed

You have the upper hand

With me twirled around your fingers

Nothing I do could drive you

As mad as you've driven me

No touch

Could turn you to stone

Could turn you to melty butter

Could stop your heart

Even for a moment

I'd do anything

Anything

For you

My pride aside

I know it true

Anything is a lot of things

When you think on it

And I'm an addict

To your touch

So no price could be high enough

To get me to stop

I hold no power

No pull or sway

And you've figured this out

And tease me in anyway

That's fine

Don't stop

Because the smallest of tastes

Is better then none

To the lowly addict

That could never have won

when its right in front of you

but you cant quite reach it

~

when you crave it

to the point where you shake with anticipation

~

when it lightly touches you

and your mind crashes unable to function

~

when the very thought of it

brings you to your knees

~

when its light whisper

melts you to your spot

~

when its torture to stay

but you cant make yourself leave

~

when it pins you to your spot

and you cant do anything about it

~

when fingers creep over you

freezing you to your spot

~

when you're filled with longing

making your heart race and breathing heavy

~

that is the pain you put me through

and I don't ever want it to stop

I'm addicted

its a drug

I need it

long for it

crave it

each moment ticks by slower then the last

my mind is constantly occupied

thinking of this drug

my need multiplies

I can hardly go a day without it

even then I miss it before it leaves

I crave to feel it rushing through me

long to feel its pull on me

with it there everything is fine

and so now I've come to rely

on this addiction of the mind

I'm so addicted

its all I crave

the touch of this drug

I could never remake

the thought of it's enticing

I really need my fix

I'm running on empty

so much so

that its consuming me

I need its touch

to feel its sweet relief

to have and hold that drug closer to me

to feel it winding itself around me

tighter and closer till its choking me

I'm hooked on this drug

like nicotine cocaine or gasoline

or any drug in betweenits touch is thrilling to me

Close my eyes

Clench them tight

Breathe in

Just right

My demise

I must fight

I have to win

Dimming sight

Suddenly

I find you

An anchor

My rock

I hold tight

For dear life

A place of sanity

Where I don't have to fight

The place I'm alright

Not nightmares, just bad dreams

Nothing you'd think to bad

Being chased by a bomber in a grocery store with a gun

A murderous cat that looks like your own trying to kill your beloved cat

Going to a different dimension with your sister only to have your other dimension bother and dad try to kill you with their machine guns

Night after night for far too long

Bad dream after bad dream

It's getting to the point where I don't want to close my eye

Each dream leaves a bad taste in my mouth

Each dream is inescapable

I couldn't say why

Just that I know they will come

I can't do it anymore

It's breaking me

Slowly but surely

To fall asleep in your arms

To fall asleep holding you

To fall asleep with you right there

And the have it all torn away

I can handle it anymore

I can't be told to go

I can't be shoved towards the door

It hurts too much

To leave you at three in the morning

To be told I can't stay

To have to walk away from you

It hurts to damn much

To lie in my own bed

Alone

At three in the morning

After I left you

After you told me to leave

After you told me it's way too late

You needed to get to sleep

It shouldn't hurt

But it does

I lie in the dark alone

Feeling so empty and sad

Evil feelings creep in the night

Loneliness

Unwanted

Hurt

Longing

Whispered voices come to me

Addictions cradle me

I flinch away

But here I lie

Alone in my bed

Having left you

And you watched me leave

At three in the morning