Consequently
As soon as I left
Before she was there
Consequently, and simultaneously
Deafness fell upon you
Eager as I was to say
Few words describe how I felt
Go on, you say.
Have at me and let it out.
Instead I stand silently before you.
Joy stripped from my heart.
Killing all semblance of humanity.
Lost in unfathomable darkness.
My heart crumbles to dust.
Never again will I feel emotions.
Over and over I subjected myself to pain.
Promising, this time will be the last!
Questioning my sanity and ability to rationalize.
Risk factors negated all reward.
Somehow you managed to lure me back.
Traps set.
Unaware, though I should be, I'm caught.
Vicious cycle!
Wicked lies!
Xenophobia would have served me well as I know you not!
You've never been truthful, only wearing masks.
Zero love has been shared but my heart was left un-spared.
Tough Man
The rigid softness of his chest
Cradling her head
One arm a secure embrace
The other lovingly stroking
The hair of this stranger
Her tears soaked his shirt
A gentle shhhhh, overlapping her sobs
His strength, her comfort
Fast forward
Two months
Her soft embrace
Chest cradling his head
Arms security blankets to him
Releasing his burden of unnecessary strength
Tears drenching her dress
Her hushed voice calming
It's okay, it's okay.
Barring his soul
Sharing himself
He is tough.
Man.
Shoulder Glass
The paramedic collects the fragments
Amber and clear
From his shoulder
And that of the road
It was cold, icy
Couldn't see the truck coming
You should have been here by now
An eight hour drive
Michigan to Missouri
It's been twelve
It wasn't the plan
You wanted to confess
Your love, for me, to me
Repair our separation
A mistake
Now you knew
But without warning
Plans dashed
And so I will die too
Never knowing the love of you
Your intentions in shards
Along the shoulder of the highway
Sparkle hopefully in the headlights
As my eyes did for you
My heart, a brittle artifact
I'll collect it's pieces
And
I'll try to put them back together
But some were buried
With you
And the glass in your shoulder
Mood Rings
Two for a dollar
One of a kind
We bought them together
Only cheap plastic
Worth more than gold
It ties me to you
To a moment
To a day
hen there was us
Just we
Holding hands
Together again
More than a candy store trinket
Precious metal
As it rolls around the basin
Panic begins
It nears the event horizon
The edge of the drain
A last minute snatch
Preserving my memories
More precious than this ring
Which is only a physical reminder
Of the love we share
My mood ring
Like us
Colorful and rare
Deadliest Choice
from the bottom of the canyon
everything is clear
it was my mistake
giving away my heart
surrendering my will
love is trust they say
trust has led me here
to earthen regret
cactus barbs in my arm
scorpion venom coursing through me
vultures circling overhead
the ultimate sacrifice
myself
to save the others
exposing her kindness as fraud
their gift of gratitude?
blood pooling around my head
that evildoer exposed is now me
their blame wrongly placed
yes
I killed her
it was necessary
she’d have killed them all
a sweet death of complacency and apathy
she made them her puppets
blinded by her manipulation
yet I pay
cruel, evil, villain
slanderous labels forced upon me
her life extinguished to save her
my unrequited lover
slain to save the other men from that siren
I shall forever be
the murderer
Fire
My love for you burns like a wildfire.
Spreading from my chest.
Sparked by my heart.
Jumping and leaping.
Limb to limb.
Disintegrating all emotion from my body.
It burns up my mind.
Feeding on my dry desolate thoughts of abandonment.
I tried to save me.
Extinguish the fire with tears.
It served only to delay the inevitable.
Causing the blaze to smolder in my sodden chest.
Left behind is an ashen husk.
The false form of a human.
One touch and the seemingly solid form collapses.
Perhaps these ashes will nourish another.
May a tree of hope rise up!
This destruction fertilizes the next love.