Rain or shine, I got the time

So bring me home, a place of kind

To feel and to see again

Trying see this through until the end

It's clear to me

There's something I need

It's something so discomforting

My body aches and shivers free

Shouting out, inwardly

But I'm a long way from home

Rain or shine, I got the time

So bring me home, before I unwind

To feel and to see again

A feeling far around the bend

Loved you then

I don't love you now

Heavy is the weighted crown

Dreaming peace until I drown

Please wake up -- I don't know how

I know your voice

I know your face

I stood within your ebbing grace

You took away, I can't replace

Trapped within this hopeless place

Your secrets bound, they can't be found

Brush my hair, whisper a sound

A spring uncoiled, my mind's unwound

Secrets bound, never to be found

I'm still a long way from home

Rain or shine, I got the time

I have no hope, no peace of mind

To feel and to see again

The hope is real, but it had an end

The hope is real, but it had an end

Scribblings of a madman

Who can't see in the dark

No no, he's just a man

Trapped inside and hysterical

There's just pain

He's not insane

It's all the pain

Isn't everyone a little insane?

Crazed looks befoul a beautious mind

Cracked and broken like his smile

Margins for error were slim to none

Yet here he is trapped inside and hysterical

Walls of Jericho, set me free

I am but a man, shallow and wasted

There is a shadow in here with me

It craves me now that it has tasted

Silhouette

I'm not confident, but I know who I am

Who it is, that's another story

A children's tale, spun from the head

Alas it is no fable to behold

It's just a crack in my foundation

I like to call it a guide

It shows me through that door

It says I'm too feeble now, but soon...

The floors are soaking wet

Blood stains the carpet

My time hasn't come yet

I don't want to become a silhouette

Silhouette

I'm fucking over it!

I feel the walls splintering my mind

They wriggle and writhe my spirit

Just kidding that wasn't me

(Who am I?)

Gone gone gone

Heh, I am a ghost of nothing

I've been betrayed

This cabin is my home

The cabinets hold happiness

Just keep slamming my head against them

You see, my friend?

It's all gone gone gone!

Here I am, come take me

Get me out of here

I'm a danger to no one

Can't you see?

I'm just lost and alone

I'm just...

Lost and alone

Silhouette

Shadows play tricks on the mind

Streetlights bring upon an artificial dawn

Wild eyes flash, lightning in the dark

Honor-bound by death, move forward

Shadows, lost souls of man

Cyphers of truth spiraling in pattern

Rungs connect the stories

A code in deliverance of humanity

Inside man, inside all

Look within, see degradation as acceptance

Slender serenades from raindrops on rooftops

Fearfully free, my cognisance entranced

A sacrifice is made

Each step leaves a sour note

Aroma wafting into a sensory overload

Conveyal of sound and sight

Each sense a jester to mock

Breathe, as this world breathes

Slender serenades from raindrops on rooftops

Fearfully free, my cognisance entranced

A sacrifice is made

Tyrannical moonlight give life to shadows

Formerly whispers from the trees

Beams of luminescent energy

Flowing through a overgrown forest

Lost in the woods, alone and afraid

The light envelops the dark

The dark consumes the light

Truth concedes to lies

Lies forfeit to truth

Lost in the woods, alone and afraid

Slender serenades from raindrops on rooftops

Fearfully free, my cognisance entranced

A sacrifice is made

Sparring with the memory evanescent thought

Blindly drawn towards nothingness

Walking along the beaten path

Longing for something long forgotten

Past mistakes, just fleeting tragedies

Slender serenades from raindrops on rooftops

Fearfully free, my cognisance entranced

A sacrifice is made

Looming shadows dance before me

As I fade into the light

Vindicated past burning memory

Tried as I may, avoidance proved it's might

Death and embers dance around me

Sparking and crackling black flames

Nip at the heart of one true home

Winded disintegrated ashes, lions to tame

I let it fester, let it burn

Led it to my soul to feast

Another lesson yet have learned

Eyeless ghoul of man turned beast

Fear my ashes, fear thy thrown

Ruled by one, The One inside

Trodden lay the milestone

Trail of men, crosses held up high

Fading into thine eyes

Brings nothing but shadows

I hear all my cries

Bound by fear I can't escape my gallows

Empty here and shallow bare

I lay my heart out like a stone

Riddled by anger tough to tear

I smash apart what once was home

I am a liar

I am a blasphemer

My time is marred

Hope in quarrel

I cannot go higher

I am only but a dreamer

My soul is a shard

Broken but immortal

My time is marred

Hope in quarrel

My soul is but a shard

Broken but immortal

I'm left here with carnage latched onto my throat

Choking from an empty, hollowed grip

Blood climbing higher and higher, suffocating

Dreary eyes watch on without a care in the world

Unto death, I ascend further

The apex, and I descend to madness

Faltering only to speak your name

Leaving a trail without a trace

I give one final curtesy to my audience

The show will always go on without me

I hear nothing, no joy, no sadness, no hatred

Only silence as I receive my curtain call

Growing darker, into nothing but a whisper

Reaching nowhere, exhale only a whimper

Gaze deeply

For it will be the last of my soul you see

A legacy of shadows

Whisped about the wind

Stones as heavy as silk

Jostled in the casket

You fell on soft words

Sewn together by the damned

Losing the wherewithal to see

Oh, how you pray to be prey

That bristling snake clutches my brittle spirit

Death's jaws clench my eyes shut

The condemned reach for my ankles

Dangling like bait for the beasts

You wove your web to trap my worthlessness

Giving yourself something worthwhile in the process

Ashen bones fill the cracks in your foundation

I'm left to rot deep below

I'm not bitter

I've lived a life void of meaning

Just delicate, frail memories

Swept away, in the expanse of time

You gave me love, you gave me hope

What does it matter, if it was a farse?

It was more real to me than reality itself

As life flutters from me, I won't forget

You refrain from true commitment

Pardon your commitment of me to my tomb

Sealing it with a kiss, sealing it with a stone

Blessing me to my grave

You took away my pain

And with it you took me

Now to the gallows, I'll remain

To the gallows, I remain

Fingertips flit about foreign flame, a wisp of breath

A spark of life, a spark of death

Smoke signals dance around a flickering silhouette

An acrid aroma from a fresh lit cigarette

Slipping shadows scatter from glowing streams of sight

Beckoning forth with a whisper at midnight

The incantation brushes against the skin

Felt like a voice, echoed beneath the wind

The emotionless incandescent moonlight

Provides a blanket of cold, washed out light

A realm void of all but doom within its wake

A feeling pitted deep inside, left rotting to forsake

A distant sound slithers into the mind

A worm burrowing in the blind

Grasping at shattered remains

Speared from splinters of the brain

Reality shrieks, reaching for the soul

Like a locomotive, desperate for her coal

Listen close for the Banshee’s bawl

Deafened out by the Siren’s call

Fingertips flit about foreign flame, a wisp of breath

A spark of life, a spark of death

Smoke signals dance around a flickering silhouette

An acrid aroma from a fresh lit cigarette

Slipping shadows scatter from glowing streams of sight

Beckoning forth with a whisper at midnight

The incantation brushes against the skin

Felt like a voice, echoed beneath the wind

The emotionless incandescent moonlight

Provides a blanket of cold, washed out light

A realm void of all but doom within its wake

A feeling pitted deep inside, left rotting to forsake

A distant sound slithers into the mind

A worm burrowing in the blind

Grasping at shattered remains

Speared from splinters of the brain

Reality shrieks, reaching for the soul

Like a locomotive, desperate for her coal

Listen close for the Banshee’s bawl

Deafened out by the Siren’s call

Take me away

Into the night

Out of the glim of the street lights

Into your arms and

Into your heart

Tuck me away

Into exile

Snuff out my dreams so I can stay a while

I’m afraid of being

Torn apart

I’ll never be a lover

I only bring the heat

Company under covers

Filling space between the sheets

Make me your faithful servant

For I am a gentile in your eyes

Unleash your inner beast

Tell me I’m too old to cry

I’ll never be a lover

I only bring the heat

Company under covers

Filling space between the sheets

Are we making music?

My heart never skips a beat

Just company under covers

Filling space in your sheets

Break me away

Into your mind

Show me that my love is blind

My life is consumed

À la carte

I’ll never be a lover

I only bring the heat

Company under covers

Filling space between the sheets

I’m your white lie

But he’s your alibi

Stick together

’Til we’re just about busted

You keep haulin’ ass

Runnin’ from your past

I’m on your tail

Tired and frustrated

Run towards him

And lay me your sin

I’ll pick you up

While you’re wasted

Forward the beast

Trapped within the sheets

You can’t escape

Because you’re just a lost cause

You’ll be gone

So move along

Move along

You’re just a lost cause

You’re gone

I’ve moved on

So move along

I am your medicine

He can wait there

You don’t play fair

Let’s play around

Until the sun sets down

Keep you impaired

Marred into despair

You come back

Because you’re just a lost cause

You’ll be gone

So move along

Move along

You’re just a lost cause

You’re gone

I’ve moved on

So move along

Come take your medicine

For my sake

I wish I could go back, just so I know how I messed up. So I know what I can do now to fix it. I want to be yours. I want to be the friend I was before. I miss it. I would do anything, give everything, to make it better. To have what we had before.

I just don't know what more I can do, if there is any more I can do.

Give me guidance, I'll give you change. Give me your heart, I'll give you my all. My very soul. But give me a chance, and I'll fuck it up. Everytime. It's who I am... It's inevitable. But for better or worse, I will keep on trying.

For your sake. For our sake.