Have you ever wished you were dead

Just because of a gesture

Or hurtful words that were said

That maybe if I had done it deeper

Because death seems so much easier

I am still screaming

And my wounds are not healing

I still live in fear

I cry inside but you do not hear

My body is just a shell

Deep down I feel like im in hell

I am dead inside

Please help me feel alive

I dont know how to deal

With this emptiness I still feel

I want you now

I want to paint you

With my tongue

I want to feel you

Grow inside me

Let me ride you

Until you cum

Let me feed

Off your body

I want to see you sweat

So lift up my skirt

And rip off my pants

You know that makes me wet

I'll be your every fantasy

You know I give best head

So what you standing around for

It's time to break the bed

He hurt me so bad nearly everyday

Over,again and again

He pushed me into doors

He punched me it the face 

Telling me I was the one to blame

You've taught me how to love again

How to be loved and accept who I am

I had forgotten how amazing it felt

Because of that poor excuse of a man

You have put my heart back together

Kissed all my bruises away

You have no idea how grateful I am

More than words could ever say

I know you are a part of me

Nomatter where you are

Mum tells me your in the sky

The biggest,brightest star

I will always hold you close

Keep you always safe in my heart

I just need you to know that

I love you

Even through we have always been apart

You don't know me

But I know you

I've watched you from afar

I'm the one that sees you sleeping

And popped the tyres of your car

I can not wait any longer

I need you to be mine

I'll dress you in silk and diamonds

And buy you the finest of wine

I only have one warning

The last one she tried to run

Now she is buried deep in soil

Will never again see the light of the sun

Pull my hair

Devour me

Drive me

Completely insane

Fuck me

Destroy me

Do me

All over again 

Touch me

Bite me

Take me 

From behind

Anyway you want baby

Let our bodies intertwine

I stare at her wondering

What ever went so wrong

She used to be so beautiful

Happy,free and strong

I see her everyday

A shell of who she used to be

So I Paint on another smile

Pretend the girl I see

Isn't my reflection

Isn't really me