Rocky Passage
I mourn the loss of a life not fully led,
Of opportunities not seized at the time;
From some situations I panicked and fled,
From the pit of my despair I could not climb.
What can I do now except to look ahead?
To seek new experiences without dread;
Show me the way and I promise I will go,
In the end, love of life I hope I will know.
#poetry #rispetto
[A hendecasyllabic rispetto on a topic I've been contemplating a lot recently.]
I Became My Own Best Friend
When I sat alone
I looked around
And observed a darkness so deep
I could not see any shapes or shadows before me.
There were no voices
And no sounds.
The eerie silence
Was very alarming at first.
But then I decided to relax
So I could listen and look a little closer.
I heard a voice and
Begin to see a small light.
It was nothing I had experienced before.
So I felt I was imagining it.
I decided to follow the dream
And walked toward the light.
I realized the voice was coming
From the light.
The voice was my own
Saying words I did not recognize.
As I got closer I realized
There were no shadows.
But there was a barrier
Between I and the light.
My voice was telling me
That in order to break the barrier
And free myself
I must get to know myself.
It told me of a wonderful journey
I could take to discover my talents and desires.
That this would happen when
I became intimately aware of my own darkness.
It invited me to explore
The depths of my inner soul.
It told me I would never
Be lonely again.
For when there is no barrier
There is only balance.
A whole new world opens before me
With unlimited journeys.
howl
in the wake of our discussion,
we hurl insults like grenades,
like bomb vessels bursting, a
face-off at opposite corners
of the room, and rage rends
the air, lends the atmosphere
a note of storms clawing at
our beached bodies, a volley
of venomous spray, when you
tell me that everything i do is
mediocre and i retaliate with
the observation that nobody
likes you, you are friendless
and alone, always, then you
scream, you stupid cunt! and
the windows shudder with the
volume of our passing—please,
love, don't remember this, i
walk
towards you now,
closer and closer
with my mouth hanging open,
my mouth is a black hole
growing,
a maelstrom that
shatters my face apart,
a hole from
which
my howl
emerges
coming up to
find you,
grind you, it rises
from the crouched ladder of
my skeleton,
a furious noise
obliterating everything,
it swallows up
your voice
and erases
your words
~disorientation
ask me again
why the wounds
hold me here
like clots
& bruises
of another
ruined sky
with its
sharp edges
& its palette
of blackbirds
its long reach
of darkness
ask me again
why I cling
to the thunder
rioting the night
why I cling on
the edge of tremble
as ghosts look
straight through
the page where
this poem breaks
another mirror
because I will
write you seven
years in a language
of stolen phrases
& forget-me-nots
as I tally fourteen
years of warning
signs in the way
knuckles & needles
have drawn a clef
of scars on
my bluing skin
in this space
between clouds
where I measure
the air & the
falling rain
as I plant my
suffering like
a promise in
a thicket that
waits to sprout
its roots in snow
to bristle the nest
in a branching pine
& crawl through
the wind stealing
my breath so
you can climb
the ladder of
my fractured ribs
wiggle like a worm
to a soft red apple
& fill the pretty
little holes in my
heart with wet matches
& hand-rolled
cigarettes
because you hate
everything you love
& my eyes taste
what we've broken
peppered with
salt to melt
the frost on
my bare feet
standing in
this puddle of ink
staining just beneath
my freckled flesh
with veins collapsed
from the sludge
with a throat
so full of hunger
lah 6.11.17 ○
My Antagonizing Protagonist
I stare at her and she stares at me.
The clock ticks. My stomach growls.
And still we stare at each other.
Finally, something breaks.
"Why the fuck won't you talk to me, dammit?!" I scream at her in despair.
She says nothing.
"I've read alot, a LOT, of interviews with authors who say their characters talk to them! Some authors even say their characters talk so much, they have to scream at them to shut up!...But not you. No! You stay silent!"
I look her in the eyes and she looks back, but her face conveys no emotion.
"WHY?! Do you not like how I started your story? Did I do something wrong? Tell me! Tell me so I can fix it! I'm all ears!"
Still nothing.
Now I'm really angry and the threats come,
"You fucking bitch! How about I just say 'fuck you' and write you out of the damn story, huh? How would you like that, Miss High and Mighty?...Huh?...If you won't freakin' talk, I bet someone else will!"
She's nonplussed. Her mouth doesn't so much as twitch.
I try a different tact,
"Please," I cry, tears starting to fall, "just say SOMEthing. Give me ANYthing. One small nugget and I'll go from there...Please?...Please?... Whyyyyyyyyyyyyy?"
Still, she is unmoved. I stare at her, again, thinking of all the high hopes I had for a successful collaboration. I think of all the books we could sell together. I think of all the money we could have. I think of all the fun we should be having, drinking coffee and putting words to screen. Alas, my protagonist apparently has other plans.
Mutely, she sits. Staring at me, but not moving otherwise. Her mouth doesn't move. Her nose doesn't twitch. Her hands stay folded in her lap, ever so ladylike. She neither crosses nor uncrosses her legs. She doesn't straighten her unkempt hair. She does nothing but stare.
The clock ticks. My stomach growls.
"Talk to me before I beat the dog shit out of you!" I put my face right up to hers, but not even a hair does she move, to back away from me. "I SAID you better. fucking. talk. to. me. now, dammit!"
Out of control, I grab her and start shaking her, back and forth, screaming, then slapping her, then screaming more. I've lost myself. Never ever before have I been abusive and now here I am, bloodying the one person I need most at the moment.
I somehow manage to get hold of myself. Walking over to the wall, I beat on it with my fist until it's bloodied and the wall is smeared with red, hoping to get my anger and frustration and torment out without hurting HER any more than I already have.
Finally collected, I go back and stare at her again.
I stare. She stares. The clock ticks. My stomach growls.
I sigh. And I cry and I cry and I cry, while my protagonist sits, silent, unmoving, unhelpful.
Sea Skin
I am
the soothing tide
drifting on back strokes,
footprints left as treasure
in dawning foam
of lapping teal waves.
I am
watching weeping
white diamond wind
tossing oceans in
salt of briny breeze,
kissing azure ocean
of white capped dreams.
I am
skin of the sea rising
to frothed crescents,
canopy of waves
sheltering my soul,
alone, holding ocean
in my sieved fingers
I am
rich cobalt view
of serene passion,
floating above surface
before diving into depth,
sunlit smile and silence.
I am
uncharted waters waiting
for you to decipher
blush of shell-toned sky,
a soaring seagull
at cusp of cerulean sea.
I am
sailing my ship
to unknown horizons
in destiny of ballads,
strolling endless shore
of no regrets.
The Path of the Auricle
The curve of your ear
Round and luscious
The lobe dropping slightly
The pinna rising gracefully
Curving fluidly around the canal
Feeling the skin, taught, the cartilage pliant
As I run my tongue over its length
Naked and vulnerable
I whisper sweet nothings
Into it
Promising of things to come
#davidaintgotnothingonyou #sweetnothings #ear #challenge #micropoetry
Well, It COULD Be --
Noun(?)
[1] The stuff at the bottom of one's grill, after one has finished cooking; a mix of coal, grease, wood chips, etc.
[2] The stream of curse words, numbering three or more, that fall out of one's mouth after stubbing one's toe on something.
*[3] Cousin to Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious