1 am thoughts.

Thinking about the future is really fucking scary. I'm graduating highschool in a year. After that, we'll all go our own paths. We'll drift apart and never talk again. sure I can say something optimistic and unlikely like "we'll stay in touch" or "we won't ever drift apart" but I know that's a load of crap. And what comes after highschool? Even worse. Knowing me, I'll probably end up less successful and live with the regret of that. Along with many other highschool regrets. That crush I never told about my feelings? That person I was too nervous to talk to? That emotion I wanted to convey but failed to? All down the regret pit. Maybe it's all part of the 16 year old experience. Maybe I'm overthinking it and it'll all be okay. Maybe the uncertainty of it all just disappears when you grow up. I hope I'm right on that at least.