Is It still Love?

Is it love, if I already let go?

Such a pitiful sight to see, this isn't love. 

Why would you come here to see me?

Is it for my money and riches? Perhaps my silver rings, and plated gold? 

Carrot gold earrings, dazzling brighter than the moonlight. Is it love, if you let go a long time ago? The twinkling stars remind me of your beautiful eyes, the same ones I used to cast you out of my house. How cruel fate can be, mother. Perhaps in your next life, you won't leave me for some flea bug man. I'm sure you'll leave and repeat the same horrid cycle again and again. An endless nightmare. Let me cradle you until you rest, never forget you still are my blood. My home is not your home but my kindness and warm gentle hands shall soothe your grieving pain. Rest easy mother, for I Am still at your side. The twinkling stars quiet down, leaving nothing but stardust and fractured moonlight. Dear mother, wait for me in the next life… I will try to love you again, I promise. 

A letter from my mother before she passed:

My sweetheart,

you have always had that shine in your eyes, the same ones since I first laid eyes on you. Please live on and forget me, I only wished to rid of my life so I wouldn't be a burden to you. And now look at me, I walked up to your doorstep expecting a warm welcome, what was I thinking after all the years of pain and endless suffering I left you with. You did the right thing, I had to go. My sweet lovely angel, you came back to see me when I was dying on my hospital bed. The tears I had that night and yours too, they broke me. I resent my life, please live on and forget me.

I wish I could have held you for just one more time. Why did things have to be like this? I was so young and naive, “WHY OH GOD WHY?!!!!!!!!” I'M SUCH A HORRIBLE MOTHER!! TAKE ME NOW AND RID OF ME!!!!! My precious child... you truly are a gift from God. I'm sorry, I never could tell you about your special eyes and your black wavy hair. Tell me when you get to the next life, I want to hold you just one more time. I'll be waiting...

Sincerely, The Lady In Black.